“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Saturday was May 23. All was quiet as far as Miss Callahan’s apartment was concerned. Jane and I did not see her, but on occasion we heard her voice through the door to her apartment as we used the hall. She had visitors on several occasions. Jane had visited her a couple of times through the week, and Miss Callahan now recognized her when she saw her. But it was obvious her memory was faulty.

A dispersion has begun in which the ego will find it more and more difficult to hold energy within forms of personal identity, or to use energy for the purposes of the ego. The energy will fly every which way, uncontrolled, and no longer channeled. Habit will still have some power of restraint for a while yet, but whole blocks of conceptual realizations, and whole blocks of time realizations, are now surely drifting away from the ego’s control.

It was a moment of momentary (underlined) terror, as the ego realized that what it fought against and what it would continue, though ineffectually, to fight against, was indeed no enemy to it but a most familiar omnipresent inner self, against which it was now powerless. The ego returned but this was the first instant where it actually came face to face with its counterpart in essence and in fact.

He dared not fall sick until the final night of the play’s run, although the attack almost occurred just before the first night of the play. Ultimately he will have to get out on his own. It is almost necessary that he realize the way his mother is dominating him, and understand his own dependence. Otherwise he fights phantoms and uses up valuable energy that he now desperately needs.

Distortions are now occurring less and less. A careful rereading of material will in such cases usually clear up such misunderstandings, as you will see when you reread the actual wording of the passage referred to.

I suggest now your first break.

We will study these effects in a most detailed fashion at a later time because of their importance. This may sound unbelievable to you; nevertheless the same effects that cause emotional outbursts also cause physical storms. The basis is the same. The manifestation is different. The particles of air being themselves composed of molecular structures having, as all molecules do, a generalized subconsciousness, and in condensed form a comprehension of the inner laws of the universe, are also then psychic as well as physical structures, as you should by now understand.

The Indian rain dances worked. Perhaps now you can understand the reason. Incidentally, if I may make a side note in response to a question you voiced, Joseph, during break: Loren was three times a man.

There is also much here to be explained, since your conception of male and female is greatly distorted. The terms are of course reflections, in your plane, of other basic inner laws of the universe which we have yet to discuss. They have actually very little to do with what you consider male and female, and for now we can mention them briefly in terms of arrival and departure.

I still do look in on you now and then, sometimes to my amusement and sometimes to my amazement.