“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

The Miss Callahan mentioned in connection with the 23rd was the first mentioned of that date, as Ruburt somewhat belatedly realized today. The restlessness which was apparent in Miss Callahan’s behavior when Ruburt saw her, was but a small tangible evidence of the inner crisis. The crisis itself was a psychic one mainly, which will of course have physical consequences. Miss Callahan was forced to realize that even her home surroundings were no longer familiar, nor is she easy within their confines.

The return home temporarily seemed to stop this steady progress toward diffusion. The crisis occurred at 2:30 that morning, when Miss Callahan awakened, momentarily completely naked of ego, face to face with the subconscious, and sensing the inner self within.

It was a moment of momentary (underlined) terror, as the ego realized that what it fought against and what it would continue, though ineffectually, to fight against, was indeed no enemy to it but a most familiar omnipresent inner self, against which it was now powerless. The ego returned but this was the first instant where it actually came face to face with its counterpart in essence and in fact.

The play is the thing, and so it was. The play in which your friend performed represented the springboard for the inner portrayal, unfortunately, of sacrifice. The caution that was given did come through, but of course you apparently thought that this applied to Miss Callahan. It implied instead caution against the possibility of conflict with your friend’s mother, and this could easily have occurred, to no good result in the long run.

Much other energy however, while observing certain inner rules, is not so directed and can be brought under the dominance therefore of purposeful directed gestalts. This of course occurs nevertheless on a subconscious level, representing a spilling over of emotional and psychic energy from self into what is usually considered notself; and there are, constantly, effects that happen, a flowing back and forth of energy in this way.

We will study these effects in a most detailed fashion at a later time because of their importance. This may sound unbelievable to you; nevertheless the same effects that cause emotional outbursts also cause physical storms. The basis is the same. The manifestation is different. The particles of air being themselves composed of molecular structures having, as all molecules do, a generalized subconsciousness, and in condensed form a comprehension of the inner laws of the universe, are also then psychic as well as physical structures, as you should by now understand.

There is also much here to be explained, since your conception of male and female is greatly distorted. The terms are of course reflections, in your plane, of other basic inner laws of the universe which we have yet to discuss. They have actually very little to do with what you consider male and female, and for now we can mention them briefly in terms of arrival and departure.

If he were more concerned with the quality of daily material and less with outer success and recognition, he would not be in such a mental turmoil and emotional turmoil over material that is being submitted to publishers. There must be an inner freedom here.