“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Returning home from a drive on Sunday, we were surprised to see Miss Callahan and her companion sitting on the front porch; this was something we had never seen her do in the four years we have lived here; Jane said that Miss Callahan appeared to be very restless, and that the last time she had visited her Miss Callahan had doodled and written constantly on a pad without seeming to be aware that she was doing so.

(Also on Saturday evening Jane and I attended a set of Japanese Noh plays at Elmira College, at the invitation of Bill Macdonnel, who had a part in one of them. Bill has been a witness several times. After the play, at a party for the cast and friends, Bill was seized by severe chest and back pain; he left for home with his parents.

(It will be noted that this day, May 23, marks the time when Jane had the vision of sickly hands, at a very late hour after we had returned home. On Sunday we learned that Bill was in the hospital with a collapsed lung that was also blistered, and would have to remain there for several days. Visiting him on Monday, we found him much improved but still destined to remain in the hospital for observation.

The Miss Callahan mentioned in connection with the 23rd was the first mentioned of that date, as Ruburt somewhat belatedly realized today. The restlessness which was apparent in Miss Callahan’s behavior when Ruburt saw her, was but a small tangible evidence of the inner crisis. The crisis itself was a psychic one mainly, which will of course have physical consequences. Miss Callahan was forced to realize that even her home surroundings were no longer familiar, nor is she easy within their confines.

The return home temporarily seemed to stop this steady progress toward diffusion. The crisis occurred at 2:30 that morning, when Miss Callahan awakened, momentarily completely naked of ego, face to face with the subconscious, and sensing the inner self within.