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(Also on Saturday evening Jane and I attended a set of Japanese Noh plays at Elmira College, at the invitation of Bill Macdonnel, who had a part in one of them. Bill has been a witness several times. After the play, at a party for the cast and friends, Bill was seized by severe chest and back pain; he left for home with his parents.

It is really necessary that the young man get a dwelling place away from his family, and in one respect, the attack involving the lungs represented an attempt to put off responsibility. As such for a time it serves a good purpose. Other responsibilities in his profession were being put upon him, and this plus his intent to find his own apartment all weighed upon him, until he had to get out from under.

He dared not fall sick until the final night of the play’s run, although the attack almost occurred just before the first night of the play. Ultimately he will have to get out on his own. It is almost necessary that he realize the way his mother is dominating him, and understand his own dependence. Otherwise he fights phantoms and uses up valuable energy that he now desperately needs.

This will be tied in, with details, to weather in a very intimate fashion. This is far afield from Loren, and yet it is not. Other contradictions will be cleared up as you bring them up. Loren must have a female reincarnation, even to give validity to his masculinity.

Ruburt by all means should confine himself to using his best energy for his daily creative work, not draining it by worrying about material which he has sent out into what he considers the cold world.

This is his only hope of peace of mind and emotional stability. It would be advantageous for him, just when he begins the practice of psychological time, to suggest to himself that the work of the day is of primary importance. Certain arbitrary dates can be selected, any dates, for necessary letters to editors; and these letters should be written as automatically as possible.

I would suggest even, as you did Joseph, a vacation air. He takes out his aggression against editors upon his own body, which is highly ridiculous. I would also suggest that he return to the back exercises. There is somewhat more here I would say, but I am being blocked.