“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Saturday was May 23. All was quiet as far as Miss Callahan’s apartment was concerned. Jane and I did not see her, but on occasion we heard her voice through the door to her apartment as we used the hall. She had visitors on several occasions. Jane had visited her a couple of times through the week, and Miss Callahan now recognized her when she saw her. But it was obvious her memory was faulty.

(Returning home from a drive on Sunday, we were surprised to see Miss Callahan and her companion sitting on the front porch; this was something we had never seen her do in the four years we have lived here; Jane said that Miss Callahan appeared to be very restless, and that the last time she had visited her Miss Callahan had doodled and written constantly on a pad without seeming to be aware that she was doing so.

As far as my mention of May 23rd in connection with Miss Callahan, this was not a distortion; and the crisis, which was a psychio-physical crisis, came as I said that it would.

The Miss Callahan mentioned in connection with the 23rd was the first mentioned of that date, as Ruburt somewhat belatedly realized today. The restlessness which was apparent in Miss Callahan’s behavior when Ruburt saw her, was but a small tangible evidence of the inner crisis. The crisis itself was a psychic one mainly, which will of course have physical consequences. Miss Callahan was forced to realize that even her home surroundings were no longer familiar, nor is she easy within their confines.

The return home temporarily seemed to stop this steady progress toward diffusion. The crisis occurred at 2:30 that morning, when Miss Callahan awakened, momentarily completely naked of ego, face to face with the subconscious, and sensing the inner self within.

The moments will reoccur, as Ruburt noticed Miss Callahan doodled upon a pad without any conscious knowledge of so doing, and without knowledge of what was written. The body becomes dependent upon old habitual patterns that will carry on yet for a while. That evening further blocks of actual brain cells were destroyed. The cooperation therefore begins to halt.

The second mention of the 23rd date was not a distortion. I tried to tie it in by mentioning that the date had already been given in connection with Miss Callahan. There was no distortion here again. What came through was correct, but my charming Ruburt merely blocked the rest.

The play is the thing, and so it was. The play in which your friend performed represented the springboard for the inner portrayal, unfortunately, of sacrifice. The caution that was given did come through, but of course you apparently thought that this applied to Miss Callahan. It implied instead caution against the possibility of conflict with your friend’s mother, and this could easily have occurred, to no good result in the long run.