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He was three times a woman.

(By 8:50 she was again nervous. She was also tired, as I was. When she said that the thought of talking and pacing for 2½ or 3 hours was somewhat appalling, I had to admit that I felt the same way about the physical labor of writing for that period of time.

And this is also an example of an instance where Ruburt would have blocked me, but this time he did not. My good afternoon instantly confused him since he was well aware of the time. He almost blocked me, changing this to the more ordinary good evening. But as you both can see I had my reason and Ruburt gave me the chance.

I knew of this, of course, at the time. However it does not serve any good purpose for me to knock Ruburt’s knuckles when an error of this kind is made. For one thing such errors are not numerous, nor really were these particular errors harmful. They were strong positive suggestions and as such they do sometimes serve a good purpose. In some cases they could actually bring such occurrences into reality through suggestion only.

I have endeavored to avoid this sort of occurrence from happening. Ruburt has increased his abilities, or rather learned to handle them more competently since that time. He learns as he goes along, so that he will be able to recognize the actual feeling of such distortions and avoid them, as this evening he was able to feel his own attempt to block the initial portion of my greeting.

(“I just felt that it was taking place at times, very definitely.”)

(Break at 9:31. Jane was dissociated as usual. Her voice had been fairly strong at the start of the session, but it was tapering off by the time break arrived. She said she heard Seth’s good afternoon greeting just before she gave voice to it, and immediately became alarmed because she couldn’t determine what was going on. This is about the way I felt, also. Resume at 9:36.)

When I prefer to be, when it is necessary. There is too much involved in this for me to explain much of it to you at this time.

It is one thing to recognize that your particular camouflage patterns are part of reality and another to realize that there is a reality that is independent of your camouflage patterns. One of my purposes is to enable you not only to recognize but experience this independent reality, and again the use of psychological time in a correct manner will be an invaluable aid.

The use of certain drugs has been experimented with at various times through the ages, but these provide merely an undisciplined, intriguing glimpse into what is possible; and for some time in your future they will not be either practical or in the main beneficial, for reasons that I shall go into after you take your break.

It is possible but not inevitable, of course, that continued use of such drugs by certain types of personalities could over a period of time lead to complete disability to manipulate camouflage patterns.

(I had a peculiar feeling of something gone wrong. It was the first time in all our sessions that any problem like this had arisen. Jane continued to stare at me as she stood by the window.

(“You said it in a session some time ago. I happened to remember it because I was retyping the session. Or did I get the word wrong?”)

(Jane paused in her delivery. I was tempted to say more, but did not because I found it difficult to take notes, and write and ask questions at the same time. I was afraid I’d lose track of the material. I was not satisfied, but said no more.)

I was going to say that discipline is even more important in the use of the inner senses than you might think. It is true that focusing upon the inner reality at times requires a temporary lessening of outer focus, and this would sometimes give the appearance of letting go, but the inner concentration requires discipline and intent. It is quite possible to let the inner and the outer senses operate at the same time. It merely takes practice.

I suggest a break, during which time I would suggest that you look up the passage in question.

—and this time we have no distortion but a simple mistake I believe in notes. I certainly did not say what I have just seen through Ruburt’s eyes. The error is in one word; not fluent but “inner.” The outer senses are not as fluent as the inner. For some reason the word was either mistaken or transposed, I do not know. The outer senses dealing with rigid camouflage patterns could not be as fluent as the inner senses.

(“That line has bothered me at different times, though.”

No, for purely personal reasons I have my own way of conducting lessons, and I prefer to deal with one instance at a time. I am trying to keep this explanation simple, since the term “at a time” is somewhat misleading.

How many people? Very few would take this amount of their camouflage time to deal with it. It takes a peculiar set of abilities and interests for such work to be even partially successful or even accepted by the personalities involved; and for many personalities it would be difficult to maintain discipline and balance, while allowing for the necessary freedom that is necessarily involved. That is, this is a controlled experiment, with both of you allowing yourselves certain freedoms of control in certain instances and not in others. This is no easy trick. Is that what you meant?

At the same time these personalities had to be disciplined and intuitive. These personality requirements are not easy to find; plus the fact that they had to be well balanced and intelligent, at least for my purposes. I did not want to just fill a vessel. Such was not my intention. I wanted a give and take between myself on one plane and you on another.

(“I’ve thought of it at different times.”)

There you go again. In one way I have been where I am going all the time. However it was a good try.

(Jane was in the same state of dissociation during each monologue. She said she was not aware of her surroundings, and yet she was. She said it was not frightening because she knew she could snap out of it any time she chose.)