“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

This fact is responsible to a large degree for your death shock, and for the more powerful birth shock, when the new personality awakes to the prisonlike clutch of rigid camouflage pattern. Other levels have different and sometimes severe problems of a different type. One of the basic purposes of existence on your plane is to enable the personality to focus powerfully and to form basic vitality into creative pattern. Sometimes the lesson is learned too well. However, it is extremely difficult for personalities to learn to organize vitality well enough to give it form, and therefore some troubles are to be expected.

It is a giant step and a vital one, for without it the personality would be at the mercy so to speak of the very energy of which he is composed. He must learn to organize and command it, and your plane is one of the many where he gains practice and discipline in this respect. Otherwise you would have a willy-nilly chaotic arrangement, with the personality incapable of maintaining any discipline as far as his own chemical and electronic components were concerned.

As far as these drugs are concerned there are a few points I would like to make. One of your purposes as I have said is to learn to organize energy units and to focus your own energy along those lines. That is, you are the energy that you use. The self-consciousness is not to be blotted out but taken along. It is so to speak to walk side by side with the inner self.

The use of these drugs sweeps the personality off its feet. Often the personality does receive a rewarding glimpse of the inner reality, but more often the ego is merely sent tumbling through frightening images of chaotic phantom realities formed by a suddenly-released subconscious, and with no guide. The experience is often vivid and long remembered, but so unorganized and undisciplined that no inner order is arrived at, no other organization glimpsed, and the ordinary but necessary camouflage footing suddenly dispensed with.