“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

And good evening, Ruburt, my nervous pigeon. Oh, how the ego fights. It is so sure of its dominance in all matters. Woe to anyone who gives a personality knowledge in the manner in which I am giving you knowledge. Oh, how the ego rises up in arms.

Ruburt has been complaining with loud inner wails because he has been sleeping later in the mornings, and hasn’t put in his full work time this week. And of course I am to blame. I am most certainly not to blame. I certainly will not be the family whipping boy. It is true that I have disrupted your schedule to some degree, but not after all in any great manner. How could you be spending the same amount of time any more profitably? The truth is, that the lazy ego finds excuses where it may.

When I speak of the whole self I am of course referring to the personality as it exists in its entirety, having at its command use of both the inner and outer senses. That is, I speak of the doer, the mover, the breather and the dreamer as all belonging to one whole self.

I am not going to go into this particular matter to any great degree. There is certainly much to be said for Western man. However it is usually said by others, very eloquently, and nothing is said about the abilities of less civilized soto-speak societies.

(Break at 10:00. Before turning off the recorder Jane spoke into it, saying that if I could write faster she could talk faster. In regard to her fast pacing, she said it was no effort at all, that she felt as though she could “take off.” Nor does she have any idea “of what I am going to say next, or anything.”

Now physical effects may follow, such as weeping, mourning and so forth, but these effects are secondary. The experience itself does not shed tears, though the receiver of the experience may shed tears. I am trying to show you here that many experiences in everyday life, which you know by their vividness to be valid, cannot be perceived by the outer senses. And yet you are completely familiar with them.

There are so many gradations, and you have so many misconceptions, that I must tell you that at times I am appalled. Even my sense of humor withers.

They are more than prehistoric. They are in some respects evolutionary developments, being the end portions of the inner senses transformed to some degree, to permit manipulation of camouflage pattern. Before the conscious ego evolved, emotion served well as necessary stimuli to action in the camouflage environment. I am trying to put over the thought here in one way or another that as the inner senses come more and more within the field of the whole self on your plane, they take on its characteristics while yet retaining within themselves their own characteristics.

What you call racial memory exists as inner emotional memory experience. The line between inner and outer does not exist in actuality any more than a line exists between consciousness and unconsciousness. What you call the subconscious is merely an ill-defined meeting place of inner and outer experience; and I am forced to use these terms inner and outer only because of your misconception of duality.

On the other hand your inner senses are much more reliable. Your inner data is much more reliable. Your psychological experience is valid, whether chairs are solid or not. And the inner data and the inner self which you deny is a lot more permanent, my dear Joseph, and I am speaking to you as proof.

But if some of these individuals who saw whole trees began eating the fruits of the other side of the trees, you would be up in arms. You would call the fruits, I am sure, extra benefits or extrasensory perceptions. This is just a little story of my own, though I am glad to see a smile on Joseph.

As usual I could go on. You are both very patient with me, even that old nervous pigeon. If I am rather impersonal during some sessions it is only because there is so much material that I want to give you.