“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

And good evening, Ruburt, my nervous pigeon. Oh, how the ego fights. It is so sure of its dominance in all matters. Woe to anyone who gives a personality knowledge in the manner in which I am giving you knowledge. Oh, how the ego rises up in arms.

Ruburt has been complaining with loud inner wails because he has been sleeping later in the mornings, and hasn’t put in his full work time this week. And of course I am to blame. I am most certainly not to blame. I certainly will not be the family whipping boy. It is true that I have disrupted your schedule to some degree, but not after all in any great manner. How could you be spending the same amount of time any more profitably? The truth is, that the lazy ego finds excuses where it may.

When I speak of the whole self I am of course referring to the personality as it exists in its entirety, having at its command use of both the inner and outer senses. That is, I speak of the doer, the mover, the breather and the dreamer as all belonging to one whole self.

I suggest you take a brief break, and I hope you get all your pieces back together again, my two Humpty Dumptys.

(Break at 10:00. Before turning off the recorder Jane spoke into it, saying that if I could write faster she could talk faster. In regard to her fast pacing, she said it was no effort at all, that she felt as though she could “take off.” Nor does she have any idea “of what I am going to say next, or anything.”

(During break Jane had to flip the reel on the recorder because the tape was almost used up. This took a few minutes. When finally all was set, she turned on the recorder and resumed her dictating and fast pacing at 10:12.)

The term ESP in itself is a result of this artificial duality, maintaining as it does that anything not perceived through the outer senses is therefore extra and tacked on, so to speak. But this, dear friends, will pass. In the first place, your most pragmatic scientist is even now forced to admit, as even Ruburt knows, that solid objects are not solid; and the interesting sidelight of this fact must be that your faithful, tried and true, so-called dependable outer senses are in reality lovely liars, since the eyes see a chair as solid while the chair is not solid at all.

If we must speak of layers, and with your propensity for divisions I suppose we must, beneath this you have the racial memories of the species; and contained within is all the evolutionary data. We will not go into this now since truly difficult explanations enter in as to how and why, and so forth. Evolution began on your plane to begin with.

Death is the personality’s release from the physical plane, or we will use the term “the physical field,” and that is all. To the ego this is a frightening future in prospect. To the ego, even sleep seems a slap in the face. Recognition in physical life of the whole self would do much to negate this death fear, since there are rather pleasant psychological experiences which are akin to the experience of death, and which would prepare the personality for this eventuality.