“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(To Jason.) Now, first of all, your enthusiasm and your energy, these qualities are good. I would like you, however, to realize the strong emotional content within your own mind and you in yours. You do not have all of your reincarnational backgrounds and one life in particular may surprise you considerably. There is a reason why you were in the particular spiritual predicament in which you found yourself for there are always reasons. Those who set up laws and rules and regulations often find themselves confronted with those laws and rules and regulations in other lives and through their own struggle then, to escape from these, then they learn that the laws and rules and regulations were not beneficial. If you have a strong emotional feeling of this nature, then ask yourself for the reason behind it.

You said earlier you were still learning and searching, and I am simply telling you to continue to do so and to make sure that you also search those attitudes of yours of which you are most certain. This is the portion, you see, that can so easily escape your examination. You are angry at what you have done to yourself because in a past life you had much to do with the organization that you do not now like. There is nothing of guilt in this. I am not telling you to feel guilty for the past. I am simply trying to explain to you those inner motives that also operate. What you feel is legitimate but it is also charged heavily because of your own past existence—so, if I am warning you, I am simply warning you gently. And I am smiling. I am trying to get these muscles to smile so when you listen to the recording, and if the voice sounds harsh, then remember that the mechanics are not simple either.

You have done very well. As you know, you are beginning an important venture, and that is why I want you to examine your feelings and motives now. You have done so, but you have not examined the specific attitudes of which I am speaking. You have taken them for granted as beginning in this life and as a result of this life’s experience. Now, you have always been involved with churches, and you are only now learning to relieve inner truths outward without dogma. This also has something to do, as you see, with the dream. You fear again the old bugaboo would return.

Now see, you are smiling and that is much better. This was supposed to be your break, but I could not stand such a long face over here. Now, you were a fine Irishman at one time. The good Father Aloysious Ian and it was not Ian Aloysious, it was Aloysious Ian. Father indeed. Do not look at me like that. So free yourself entirely. These words, as you listen to them later, should bring other intuitions to you and insights concerning past life experience. Free yourself. You see, while you harbor bitter feelings toward any person or any organization you are not free, and you will misinterpret your information to that degree. I am sorry I forgot to smile. That is almost an Irish smile. I will let you return, and then I will return but I had to catch him on that.

(To Jason.) This lovely lady here was also involved with you in the life of which I spoke and the life of which you did not ask. Now, the very fact that you did not ask about the life is rather significant.

We have an abbess (Yvette) and in the relationships of those days there was an easygoing give and take between the convent and the house of the priest, and you were rather closely involved. You have been involved largely in two areas, and both of them have been strong. You have been involved as a mystic and you were a mystic when you were an abbess, regardless of your extracurricular activities. And you have also been involved as a courtesan. Now, these two are not as widely separated as it would appear for in both aspects you were dealing with strong personal relationships. You were also looking for answers in whatever capacity you found yourself. The two of you are together now in order to help solve some of the problems that you encountered together in this particular past life. Now, because of some of your ideas at the time, he formulated certain laws and regulations. The two of you were, therefore, involved and deeply involved.

The relationship is complicated. It has to do with that life and also a Danish life in which both of them were involved, and where this one’s mother was an older brother. There was great conflict between them. You were robbers for a time. You were poor and there was nothing else for you to do. You followed your older brother in this pursuit for some time. This was when you were fairly young children. Later you left and worked as an apprentice for a man in a carpentry shop. Your brother, however, continued in his pursuits and followed you for some time. He finally stole from the carpentry shop, and you were blamed for what was stolen. Your word was not taken; you were disbelieved. The conflict existing had to do with this episode as well as the episode from the past life. You are both overacting, overreacting to each other’s personalities for this reason.