“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now, the television screen represented your abilities—it transmitted the messages. In the dream you could not turn it off, and you put up a shield. Underneath you are frightened that these abilities will lead you along the paths that you have lead, that despite all your deliberations you will lead to another religion signified by the Buddha. And you are tempted at times to close these off for that reason, but you are also afraid that you have gone so far so quickly that the abilities cannot be closed off, and you cannot close the channel. You are also wondering what thing can come through the channels that you have not anticipated. You are strongly inclined, as you know, toward mystical matters. At the same time, because of your background, you also distrust mystical matters to some extent. You do not want them to pop up again in new guises.

You were also afraid that the Buddha would escape in the night, that through you, unknowingly, you could release this sort of thing outward. Now there is nothing for you to fear but remember, whenever you feel strongly, very strongly, against any given issue, there are usually more reasons behind your feelings than you know. There are always obvious reasons that you can point to, but the emotional charge that exists within you on these issues is highly important and should be examined and investigated by you in the same way, you see, that you would investigate it if you saw it in someone else. Do you follow me?