“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

[...] shudders, like a car trying to start; particularly something trying to drop or extend or lengthen in the right side of my neck between head and shoulders; and my sinus drain / with this, a willingness more to walk, difficult to describe; and I feel LIGHTER ON MY FEET; though I don’t weigh much when I walk I feel very heavy... [...]

Feel a mental & physical (odd!) willingness—and agreeability about walking—instead of ? [...]

[...] On awakening could feel my eyes were bugging out and vision blurred some; Pat and Carroll came; I’m embarrassed to be seen walking as I do—worse Carroll comments on my eyes—throat—I’m mad at me and at her; instant poor mood, worry about eyes again—think worse things—make an effort to trust the physician within; tell myself to ignore negative suggestions—then return to natural data. [...] I went out because I thought I should; anyhow later, the parts stopped being sore; and walking there was another difference as if I were trying to swing some from side to side the way you should; felt some ambitious, cleaned bathroom a bit....

[...] I didn’t walk as Seth suggested. [...]

[...] Not walking properly is the issue—otherwise there would be no problem. You were pleased when Ruburt walked across the floor with his plunger, without the table, yet both of you expected him to walk down steps, small as they are, and walk around the car in the garage without his table, or there is something wrong. [...]

[...] Finally he felt the impulse to walk without the table, used the plunger as an aid, and did not need to put his weight upon it. [...]

[...] You were both pleased when Ruburt walked from the bathroom to the table with his plunger. [...]

[...] With some of them has come unsteadiness and disorientation in vision and walking, as new groups release, and so forth. Yet walk she did, at least to some extent. [...]

[...] Ruburt should not be overly concerned at his locomotion, walking, in any given day. [...] More, however, on some days he will feel actively like walking, and then he should do so, and even in a day when he does have difficulty, there will almost certainly be some periods when he will feel the same urge. [...]

[...] Without that, normal walking would be most difficult. At this rate, it will not be long before the muscular activity makes Ruburt’s walking operationally better, for the muscles are incredibly strong and resilient, despite restraints they had been held in.

[...] Something—pressure in my head maybe keeps changing—the bottoms of my feet feel woozy; they throb gently; so does my neck; my breath deepens, ears feel funny—was going to walk around the house or do some other writing but for now at least I’ll have to go along with... [...]

My feelings are ambiguous—should I go along with this, doing nothing otherwise, or try to get some James though I don’t feel like it particularly or get up and walk around? [...]

Walk house twice.

For this week have him see how many times he can go out by himself or with you on a walk, but not a walk around the block or to the corner—a walk around the house will do. [...]

[...] It is important that he go with you shopping, as he has, but also that he walk outside even if he begins very slowly. If he cannot go around the block to start with, he feels despondent, but the habit of walking will grow as he gives it a chance.

[...] He is feeling impulses to go out for example for walks that he did not feel before, and be more physically active, while at the same time he does not yet feel able to perform to his satisfaction.

[...] It stemmed from his material in the session for June 5, when he said that “letting go” could have its frightening aspects for Jane, especially when she relied on such actions to improve her physical abilities like walking. Since she hasn’t been walking much since we embarked on Seth’s new program on June 3, I wondered if her attempts to let go had resulted in some fear on her part. [...]

[...] The feet are coming along excellently, so that they will be flexible enough as Ruburt walks more—that is, they will be able to manipulate in concert with the changed positions that the legs are now beginning to achieve.

It is true he has not been walking much. [...]

[...] Still some easier walking—knees feel more flexible.

2) Make cake, walk bedroom, john, etc.

Ruburt saw how being away from his desk and the house worked creatively to his advantage, as per the ride to your mother’s (in Centerville), and the earlier walk around the block. [...]

Those joints are definitely being loosened, and the unevenness sometimes presented in walking is the result of new balances being set up gradually as the knees are released. [...]

As he knows the same is happening with the arms, but he is not walking on them, as indeed he has told himself. [...]

[...] Didn’t walk around per instructions though did move about, etc. [...] It was some easier walking again today. [...]

Today he almost walked three times. Imaginatively, he did walk three times. The body immediately responded, so that he wanted to walk more. [...] He wants to walk. [...]

[...] Lately Ruburt decided, using his will, to walk to whatever degree possible. [...]

Your willingness to help Ruburt walk, your encouragement—these are all important, but the most important issue is the unity, in practical terms, of imagination and will, and the generation of creative ability in health terms, that can be sparked.

(I did say that her walking was the key to recovery: The more she walked, the less the pressure in any consistent way on other parts of her anatomy. Yet I couldn’t equate the few moments she spent walking with the half-hour rest periods, either.

[...] A few weeks ago he barely considered taking two steps in the kitchen, much less walking twice the length of the living room, or considering walking after dinner.

The fact that he is now thinking of walking after dinner is an obvious advance. [...]

[...] From john—walk 1. Later walk 2. (Head, eyes bother AM) Later back of neck—new place—releases a lot. [...]

[...] I saw a devil image walking away from me in one direction, and on the other side of me an angel image, walking away; and I knew I had both these images of myself. Then they walked into each other and blended, standing in front of me,” she said, “and while I didn’t see this as clearly, it’s what I am.”

[...] “I forgot: my head went up through the roof and I guess I was a giant walking over the earth. Then I was walking slower, and finally I was walking under water....” [...]

[...] Yet, she said, she felt an image walking just ahead of her; at the same time the feeling of warmth had left her. [...]

Vacuumed living room—instead of walking house but made an effort during day to walk around some. [...]

Those dreams reactivate Ruburt’s conscious memory of walking normally, and also serve to reawaken nerves and muscles that are connected with normal walking. [...]

(Jane had also described some excellent, very positive dreams she’d had last night, containing clear instances in which she’d been walking normally. [...]

(“How about his dream last night, in which he was walking?”)

[...] Do you want to walk or don’t you? [...]

[...] /touch of Maltz/writing free—no worrying./Walking.”)

You walk quite well without having at your fingertips any conscious knowledge of the inner mechanism’s activity. [...] Yet whether or not you have such information, you walk quite as well. Such data therefore do not help your walking performance any.

Your body knows how to walk. [...]

[...] At night, in sleep, the self’s consciousness takes longer, freer recesses from physical reality, and does this as spontaneously as the body itself walks. [...]

The entire rib area is stretching because of his exercises and walking. The discomfort there will gradually pass, as indeed other symptoms have since he began his walking. [...]

He started off very well with the walking and exercises and you have helped him. [...]

[...] The sudden easy improvements you noted, however, as with the speed (in walking), came when he allowed himself some playful rest, and when he kept his spirits up. [...]

The legs are extending further, however, and sometimes when he walks in the bathroom this is quite obvious. Have him try walking to the couch, as yesterday, to begin with, but these changes definitely mean that the important alterations in the knees are happening.