“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

All of this has been unconscious on his part. He has not been that aware of it. He felt then that he had no one to turn to or to help him. He was also afraid that his fears about physical reality now and in the future were so drastic that you would also be terrified, and that together you could not solve the problems. He was terrified of doing anything that might make you ill, and determined to bear any worries or problems alone.

He is terrified of vulnerability because of his mother’s condition when he was a child. Many of his early poems clearly showed a desire to dissociate himself from the warm spontaneous self, and to hide in a nonfeeling uncaring safety. He envied you what he thought of as your coolness, and in trying to emulate it at times he only used it as an excuse to continue this old pattern of withdrawal.

He could not handle his mother’s fear. As a child it terrified him and made him feel inadequate. He dared not feel it as deeply as he actually did; therefore fears in himself were also not to be faced. He was ashamed to look to anyone for help. He is afraid to ask for help because he was ashamed that his mother had to ask him, a child, for help, and often he hated her for doing so.

We are going to end the session shortly. He feared he was going beyond your reach, and he could have in a very real manner. This idea alone terrified him. He feared that on your own you would not make the effort to pull him back, and yet he would not ask you to do so. To show that he still has some reachable foibles, you still aroused a spark of his old enthusiasm earlier this evening when you suggested that his place (our apartment) still did have possibilities if your eyes were opened to them. So pursue that.

[...] I was terrified and ran though he said it was for my own good. [...]

He is still highly cautious at invoking your displeasure but he is not terrified, as at the wrath of some overbearing god. [...]

[...] He was terrified that his mother had died during the night when he was very young, and could not help him. [...]

[...] That (underlined) terrified him more than the present situation.

Ruburt was terrified because his early efforts seemed to have left you nowhere. [...]

[...] Now let us consider that thought and why were you so terrified of it. You were terrified of it because you are terrified of the idea that evil is more powerful than good, and that one stray violent thought of yours was more important and more powerful than the vitality of good. [...]

[...] They also imply the feelings of love and acceptance that are buried beneath your own fears, and those that you are terrified of expressing in physical reality. [...]

The overly conscientious self is afraid of emotion and display, and hence quite terrified of any ideas of communicating with survival personalities. [...]

[...] In actuality the overly conscientious self has not been educated, and is deeply terrified that Ruburt is taking false gods.

[...] For you have been, on the one hand, terrified of them, and on the other hand wanted a normal relationship. [...] You were terrified of the male, your father. [...] At the same time you are also terrified because of this background. [...]

[...] Now you have been terrified of your father from the time you were an infant. [...]

([Pat:]I had been terrified of my father for the first 19 years of my life. [...]

[...] They knew that the girl had been terrified and spoke only out of fear and did not mean to betray them. [...]

[...] The fact is that before being “assailed” by what may seem to be such terrifying unnatural ideas, you have already blocked off an endless variety of far less drastic ones, any of which you could have expressed quite safely and naturally in daily life. [...]

[...] She played with it in the grass; with conflicting feelings I watched Mitzi, of whom I was very fond, block off each attempt of the terrified mouse to escape — until finally, having had her sport, she ate it….

[...] Guilt in that respect therefore has a strong natural basis, and when it is perverted, misused or misunderstood, it has that great terrifying energy of any runaway basic phenomenon.

Now earlier he would have been so terrified that the image would not have become conscious. [...]

He was afraid not only of his own emotions, but terrified of his mother’s emotions. [...]

[...] He had been closed up in that house over there, and went wild and terrified.

He was terrified of anyone in such a condition, and he could not allow himself to be compassionate out of fear. [...]

Again, he was too terrified. [...]

[...] The more terrified you are personally, the less you dare let down your guard, and you build up psychological walls to protect you. [...]

[...] They also imply the feelings of love and acceptance that are buried beneath your own fears, and those you are terrified of expressing in physical reality.

[...] You are terrified of the idea that evil is more powerful than good, that one stray violent thought of yours was more important and powerful than the vitality of good. [...]

[...] Your own illness did literally terrify him, and he feared that if he faced his true doubts concerning my existence, that he would hurt you.

[...] You chose the set of conditions that you did because in past existences you were so terrified of death that you tried to hide its knowledge from yourself, and this time you placed it in the forefront of your attention.

[...] In periods of severe personality disturbances that can occur simultaneously with great creativity, the ego becomes terrified of the strength of the creative ability, fearing that it can be crushed beneath.

Donald may be so terrified of making choices, so indecisive, that he constructs an imaginary superbeing who orders him to do thus and so. [...]

[...] As an infant and a young child he had a strong temper, which terrified him, and he indulged in childish tantrums. [...]

[...] He is terrified to do so. [...]

In his own way he is fond of your mother at the same time, you see, but also terrified of her because the repressions cause him to exaggerate the hidden fears. [...]

[...] She’d been terrified holding sessions, way back in the beginning, for the woman in Louisiana who had MS. [...]