“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

You both believed in relating personally to the universe. You wanted some relative seclusion. The search for knowledge would mean often that you would be between beliefs, operating as you had been taught through training, and trying to operate according to the new knowledge. You know this, of course. The search for knowledge on your parts was personal. You would share what you learned with the world —but he who seeks knowledge must first of all be himself or herself, for most members of the world cannot follow such a course.

Before this life both of you decided upon the search for knowledge. Knowledge, of course, is not some thing that you find or discover. You must become knowledge. It is never apart from you. It is a process of self-discovery. You chose your environments, your interests, your families, friends, and associates forming bit by bit the details that would become the pictures of your lives.

Ruburt found our last session extremely depressing, as he saw how the two of you conspired to bring about his physical condition. Though the primary “responsibility” is his, of course, yet each of you in the same fashion “conspired” to explore art, psychic realities, and the search for knowledge together. Each of you conspired to learn far more than might have seemed possible from your backgrounds, to sort through systems of beliefs. Each of you conspired to share your knowledge with the world, so that other lives were also enriched.

[...] The obsession to have him grows precisely in proportion to your inner realization that you do not want him, but only the excitement involved in searching for him. You must end the search and face the self.

[...] Then you see you search for the someone else, neatly labeled, but the capabilities and personality developments must be pursued within the self. [...]

[...] You chase him precisely because you were fairly certain you would not have him, for it was the search, again, that was important. [...]

[...] This is the self that you cannot deny, and this should be the object of your search for now.

[...] The search for answers, and this passionate yearning toward truth, has driven Ruburt’s personality, and he became ill only when he was afraid to continue the search, because it led him into byways that he had not planned upon; or rather, upon which the ego had not planned.

Instead Ruburt is involved in our endeavor, and his daily life entwined in the search that fiction cannot approach. [...]

One of the reasons that the intellect refused to see, that its own search was bound to end up in this fashion, was Ruburt’s inability to see beyond organized religion’s hypocrisy. [...]

The ego now, once again, sees the whole personality’s search as its own, and will wholeheartedly take part.

[...] People are always searching for master languages, or for one in particular out of which all others emerged. [...] In the same manner people search for gods, or a God, out of which all psyches emerged. Here you are searching for the implied source, the unspoken, invisible “pause,” the inner organization that gives language or the self a vehicle of expression. [...]

[...] One by one my mental connections fell into place as I searched for it, yet for a time I was quite frustrated while I tried to physically verify my unconscious knowledge of its location.

[...] [If the indexes listed everything in detail, they’d end up being almost as long as the sessions themselves.] The search was worth it, though; now I had the key phrase I’d associated with Seth’s remark in Session 708. [...]

[...] The dream involving Magnum showed that like a detective you are making a search—only your search is in the larger area of creativity. The dream also says that like a private eye you are on a search, but the private eye also stands for your own private eye, or your own world view, so that you are in a process of enlarging your own private way of viewing reality. [...]

[...] There were always two faces to his endeavors—the private search for understanding, and the public expression as a writer. [...] The painter’s painting is a result of a private search, but in a gallery it becomes a public expression. [...]

Largely—for I am simplifying here to some considerable degree, but largely—Ruburt felt little difficulties to be encountered in his private search, but in their public expression he was far more cautious. It is impossible, of course, to really separate the two, but as his work became better known, the private search became more of a public issue. [...]

[...] (Long pause.) He was worried that his natural expression and search, publicly expressed at that point in history, was dangerous because it put him in the gaze of a growing band of fanatics on the one hand, and also roused old fears of a private nature, having to do with the overall validity of revelatory information. [...]

At the same time he feared that the spontaneous self could get him into difficulties (long pause), because he had no way of knowing where his own search might lead him—and particularly he feared that it might lead him into conflict with the rest of the world. [...]

Our sessions began, really, as an extension, a natural enough development, the results of a personal search. [...]

It keeps him in touch with the powerful portions of his personality that search for truth, out of joy in the activity for the quest itself. [...]

[...] Those fears are then not admitted, for he thinks that they must indeed be beneath a person whose entire life work is devoted to a search for the nature of reality, and therefore a person who must possess, or try to possess, the answers to all of the questions.

The truth, as he interprets it, is no longer the joyful, curious, creative, free search for truth, let it lead where it will; but the idea of a life’s work makes him think “Who’s following me? [...]

You returned as a squaw many centuries later—in Quebec, outside of Quebec—in the 1700’s, where you learned the intuitive knowledge of the female and applied these abilities to your search for truth. [...]

[...] While you were pleased to be considered in such a light, you were overwhelmed by your inadequacy and therefore began a search for new and more extensive knowledge. [...]

[...] And so you have begun your search again. [...]

[...] The child does not have to cry out or address or search for a particular kind of God, because it understands through such subjective behavior that its own precious singularity is also a part of the greater us-ness of all other creatures, and that its singularity is automatically assured, as is its own us-ness within that larger context. [...]

[...] The dimensions of the self begin to shrink enough, and it is at that point, in your terms, that the search for a private God or religion begins to emerge. [...]

[...] The point is not so much to search for what is wrong, but to discover what expression is denied, even while it is sought for. [...]

[...] They unite and stimulate his creative abilities so that he does what comes naturally, easily and vitally to him, searching out his own view of reality—but in certain areas the intellect and the emotions begin to separate in their visions of the picture of the world. [...]

[...] In Ruburt’s case, it began to worry that the exuberant, spontaneous, emotional parts of the self would allow their search for truth and creativity to get out of bounds, bringing some danger, perhaps, rather than honor—or at the very least scorn and criticism. [...]

Before that meeting, while consciously doing what they thought should be done—hiring detectives, searching down clues—they each followed inner directions without knowing it, because you are not taught to think of such things.

[...] They could not then see the entire picture, or understand for example that a seemingly innocuous, or even a seemingly unfortunate event, that led from a move to one place from another, had anything to do with the search.

[...] Until our hypothetical friends met each other at the corner grocery, it seemed that all of their efforts and searches brought no success. [...]

[...] With many pauses between words or phrases, she gave the impression of searching carefully for just the right word. [...]

[...] Her apparent search for each word, just the right word, continued. [...]

(Jane resumed in the same slow searching manner at 10:15.)

[...] She spoke at a faster rate and did not appear to be searching or struggling for each word. [...]

[...] His references to my own material being valid concerned my insights that many of the heads I paint represent my own psychic searches, or efforts, to obtain understanding of the dimensions of the psyche through reincarnation and counterpart depictions of those various personalities.)

Religion and science both loudly proclaim their search for truth, although they are seemingly involved in completely opposing systems. [...] They search for beginnings and endings. [...]

[...] (Long pause.) It cannot value life, and so in its search for the ideal it can indeed justify in its philosophy the possibility of an accident that might kill many many people through direct or indirect means, and kill the unborn as well.²

[...] Like detectives, these search the world, looking in a completely different way than a physical sleuth. [...]

[...] If you believe in the sinfulness of the world, for instance, then you will search out from normal sense data those facts that confirm your belief. [...]

[...] Then I searched for a second spot on the top of her head—and when I found it with my middle finger Jane’s head suddenly began to jerk very rapidly from side to side. [...]

[...] Old impediments do indeed drop away, because you enter into a higher kind of knowledge—a kind of knowledge for which you also have been searching for for some time, a structure in which Sumari time operates, so that certain aspirations can be achieved in a very minimal amount of physical time. [...]

[...] As far as I’ve been able to learn, no such transitional fossils have been found, like the discrete forms of reptiles and birds that have been discovered, so I decided to search out the next best thing: the visual representations as to what they must have looked like. [...]

Many of you keep searching for some seemingly remote spiritual inner self that you can trust and look to for help and support, but all the while you distrust the familiar self with which you have such intimate contact. [...]

[...] There are many schools for spiritual advancement that teach you to “get rid of the clutter of your impulses and desires,” to shove aside the self that you are in search of a greater idealized version. [...]

[...] I kept searching through my work...disliking organized religions with their distortions and suspecting the “supernatural” that went along with it. [...]

Since he does not use his unconscious knowledge of your work in daily life, and since you do not talk of it often, then he searches your face to see how you may have done. [...]