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The cat was aware in its terms of this. It became fat like Ruburt’s mother, but no longer threatening. It was fixed. If Ruburt’s mother had been fixed Ruburt would have had a different mother and different background, granting Ruburt had come alive.

He was also however symbolic of evil to Ruburt, and to some extent then conquered simply through the natural passage of events. With the death of Ruburt’s mother Rooney’s purpose was done as far as Ruburt was concerned; and Rooney did a final service, for through his death Ruburt faced the nature of pain and creaturehood that his mother’s life had so frightened him of.

Ruburt’s mother hated cats, particularly black ones. He, Rooney, and Ruburt passed symptoms back and forth. He was not a passive receptor however, the cat, and he even learned from his encounters with Jack Wall. Many of Ruburt’s feelings about his mother however are buried in Rooney’s grave. (Very important.) Rooney however is free of a distrust that he had carried with him, having to do with his background in that house, this time, across the way, and was grateful for those additional years you gave him.

One small postscript. Ruburt must see his existence as arising from the natural cycle of his mother’s reality and his own—two different things but connected. He did not cause his mother’s illness by his birth. Her attitudes toward Ruburt’s birth belonged to his mother, and those attitudes of his mother were far more important than Ruburt’s birth.

Ruburt is not quite with me this evening because of his condition, and it was this conflict that was sensed by your cat. Ruburt’s condition is improving, however, and there is nothing to worry you here in any important manner, though Ruburt of course is most uncomfortable. [...]

Since Ruburt’s mother had often spoken most vehemently of Ruburt’s birth being a source of disease, that is her arthritis, and pain, subconsciously Ruburt feared on a basic level that his mother wished to punish him for causing her such pain.

I am extremely sorry that Ruburt feels so badly, and I will do what I can to help. [...] And Ruburt had also tuned in on the same conversation, but had already begun to tense, and therefore was blocking every psychological stimulus in the hopes of blocking out the right one. [...]

With Ruburt this involves an aping, or adoption, a symbolic attempt to become the hated object, and therefore to be free of any hatred that might be directed by that object toward Ruburt.

[...] Ruburt, who had led him astray in the past, would now lead you into high purpose and dedication. The two of you, Ruburt and Joseph, had already made agreements, as you know. Nebene however carried a grudge as Ruburt does, or rather now as Jane does. Ruburt does not carry grudges.

[...] Nebene was furious that Ruburt would not speak for him. Nebene wanted to speak through Ruburt, knowing his abilities, and Ruburt refused.

[...] This put Ruburt under additional pressure, and he began to rebel more. You made some remark that the book was marred because of the great gaps in sessions, Ruburt’s attitude, and so forth. Ruburt therefore felt that you were accusing him again of a poor performance, and for other reasons also felt that in your eyes these faults took precedence over the book’s obvious merit. [...]

Now Nebene was aroused whenever the abilities showed themselves most spontaneously in Ruburt. Ruburt recognized the Nebene within you when first you met. [...]

When you do move you have a tendency to feel that Ruburt should pay for the inconvenience. Here you associate him with your mother, and Ruburt feels this unfair. [...] In other words you have preferred to place the problem, both of you again, upon Ruburt in physical terms, rather than face the inner issues with initiative and daring.

[...] You feared upsetting Ruburt, and Ruburt would immediately insert desperately positive statements out of a panic to find that you were so disturbed, and this would anger you.

However Ruburt has also picked up your feeling of hopelessness. [...] Ruburt is only too aware of the fact that he pushed to leave Sayre, and that your circumstances afterward in Florida were negative. [...]

Now you both thought that Ruburt’s symptoms were a solution. [...] Ruburt’s symptoms you thought gave you both time. [...]

[...] They helped Ruburt considerably. [...] Ruburt must now take the lead. Frank’s knowledge can still be helpful, but it should not be allowed, now, to curtail improvements, or limit them, by conventional knowledge of what muscles and joints can or cannot do, or by projecting any particular procedure—as, for example, Ruburt will do this or that, before this or that.

You can also help by trying to utilize your natural feelings about flexibility on Ruburt’s behalf. This must be done however in Framework 2—in other words, in quiet moments when you recognize when you are dealing at another level, so that you feel no contradiction with Ruburt’s Framework 1 behavior. Such thoughts will be received by Ruburt in Framework 2, and will then, with his present intent, begin to alter Framework 1 through direct action.

It takes physical time to write a book, so some physical time must be allowed for the normal behavior of Ruburt’s body. [...] This is what can happen as far as Ruburt’s body is concerned: forget what you think the body can or cannot do. Forget the details that you think must happen before Ruburt can walk properly. [...]

To Ruburt that is taken for granted—for there he operates extraordinarily well, mixing and merging the realities of Frameworks 1 and 2. The practical results of course appear in Framework 1, while the real creativity takes place in Framework 2. Understand that I make these divisions for simplicity’s sake, for the realities are merged. In “trying to get better,” Ruburt has taken impediments for granted, not only generally but specifically. [...]

(10:02.) Ruburt went out to his room. [...] Ruburt was given what he wanted—the psychological stimulation of a friend, who was all ready to visit you because Ruburt’s message had gotten through. [...] Even then Ruburt was tempted to have Wade come, but his own disapproval, and yours, made it obvious that to do so would certainly be a copout. [...]

[...] As far as Ruburt’s physical condition is concerned this was the pattern, as once or twice I believe he mentioned, by the way. [...] It was obvious to both of you, I believe, that at times Ruburt would stand a good deal taller. [...]

[...] That pattern began strongly enough for you to notice changes in Ruburt’s height several weeks ago. [...] Ruburt managed to stop worrying for a while, except for a few lapses, and you yourself made strides also there, and met your own challenges. [...]

[...] Ruburt was aware of rousing energy, then, as conflicts were aired. [...] You were both pleased when Ruburt walked from the bathroom to the table with his plunger. [...]

Now the same is true of Ruburt. I have always addressed Jane as Ruburt, as you know. Therefore the emergence of Ruburt confused Jane. Quite without knowing, Jane has always been aware of Ruburt’s existence. Now again, Ruburt is not part of Jane’s personality, in your terms, nor did he emerge from it.

Now Ruburt, compared to Jane’s self 3 in these terms, is closer to Jane, so close that Jane has often accepted inspiration and ideas from Ruburt without realizing it. Ruburt is the sum (smile) of the present ... Ruburt ... [...] Ruburt is the sum of the earthly personalities, intimately aware of all past lives.

I am far more than Ruburt’s “best self,” in quotes. The emergence of the Ruburt episode leads me to speak to Jane in these terms so that there will be no misunderstanding.

(Last week in one of her ESP classes, Jane found herself speaking as Ruburt, knowing she was doing so. There was evidently strong telepathic/clairvoyant communication with another student when this occurred, for as Ruburt, Jane, while conscious, described a certain ancient scene set about a campfire; Jane and her student, also female, described the same scene. [...]

At once our Ruburt is like a porcupine, feeling trapped and prickling all over, eyes glaring, and attitude more prickly than a porcupine’s quills. The fact that Ruburt considers the man an ass, helped, because Ruburt could then justify his own conditioned reflex toward authority; and keep in mind other material I have given you concerning Ruburt and the gallery.

[...] His insistence upon detail Ruburt takes as personal offense. [...] He is not rubbing Ruburt’s nose in every misspelled word, nor is he suggesting, as Ruburt suspects, that Ruburt is a mental numbskull because he is a poor speller.

He could be vindictive if treated in this manner for long, as rejection of the type that Ruburt is handing out frightens and confuses him. Ruburt is usually at least fair. [...] Nor would a bit of kindness be demeaning Ruburt.

[...] Out of pure perversity Ruburt has refused to learn how to spell. If authority says spell a word one way, Ruburt defiantly spells it another.

The coins represent the small amount of money Ruburt did receive. The old man also stands for Ruburt’s father, as Ruburt thought of him bumming around, frittering away his time and energy, so he was stealing from the pot. [...] Ruburt was not greedy, but curious. [...] (Pause.) The old man also stood for old man time in the dream, and reinstated the fact that an executor is important, for the old man also stood for —in the dream, now—Ruburt’s father acting as his own executor—meaning that his nature led him to leave ends loose.

Ruburt’s father always planned to make a new will before his death, and kept putting it off. In the dream Ruburt finds a strange mechanism made by his father that is supposed to dispense some money. A kindly old man appears, who says that Ruburt’s father made this contraption two hours before his death, to ensure Ruburt some inheritance.

Do not think in terms of a generalized ideal situation, but in terms of better covers, better communication with Prentice in both friendly terms as per Ruburt’s calls to Tam, and in the definitive terms of clearly stating specific requests. [...] Yet you will still be dealing with the same kinds of people, and Ruburt has done well as far as publishers are concerned, in handling innovative books published by the firm. Some other companies might well have exerted even more pressure to keep Ruburt writing along certain proven lines. [...]

[...] Ruburt, however, would rarely deal with such issues at all, though he was aware of them, so you felt you bore the brunt. You cannot expect Prentice to understand the nature of your own idealism, or Ruburt’s, in such a way that Prentice as an entity can apply that idealism to its packaging. [...]

[...] Years ago you learned how potent suggestion could be when Ruburt used hypnosis with you, and you promptly dropped it. You did not use it with Ruburt, nor did Ruburt make any serious attempts to use it himself. [...] Moreover, Ruburt would simply not go to work, and lose writing time to support you so you could paint.

When you were discussing the letter from the young English gentleman, Ruburt was impressed with his progress. You said “But he was walking,” meaning that Ruburt was not. Ruburt is walking—as poorly as our hypothetical writer is writing. [...]

About Ruburt’s predictions (about yesterday’s mail; very successful): many people feel such a performance impossible. [...] That reviewer (Donald Newlove) has connections with Ruburt in Framework 2, because of Ruburt’s old intents when he published in the male magazines.

[...] Years ago, when walking down the street with Ruburt, he exuberantly ahead of you, you often said “Slow down.” [...] At that time, long past, you were worried and somewhat jealous of Ruburt’s work progress. [...]

(10:24.) You have abilities as a leader, as Ruburt has. [...] You can indeed now, to some extent, serve as a leader to Ruburt in certain areas, where before you feared that might inhibit his independence, and you felt he needed the freedom to grow.

[...] Ruburt does not think of books that he did not finish. [...] You can coax Ruburt more and encourage him, and exert your power more in that direction. [...]

When you see Ruburt going too far in one direction, and see him trying to alter that direction, you can indeed exert your energy, leadership and direction there, for the two of you also operate jointly as well as individually. [...]

Ruburt must realize that his power and energy can, and indeed is, changing his body for the better. [...]

[...] Ruburt is offered a rather lucrative and fairly prestigious position. When his prospective employer sets a time for a meeting, however, by telephone, Ruburt cannot hear him clearly and so must double-check. [...] Ruburt knew he could gain sufficient-enough prestige by using his abilities in other directions; by being, say, a director of a gallery, or by accepting any of a number of positions, such as teaching, that had been offered him in the past.

One woman, another follower, for Ruburt is the leader of this group, pushes a landscape of yours across the floor ahead of her—preserving, you see, your art as well as Ruburt’s. Finally one of the women objects strenuously and decides to stand up and show herself. [...] That woman represents Ruburt’s decision to be done with the symptoms, to stand up, to walk.

(9:20.) Ruburt, however, objects, and that Ruburt represents the portion of the personality who is still clinging to old beliefs, but losing its leadership. [...] As Ruburt wakens, he realizes that nowhere in the dream did he have any reason to hide. [...]

Ruburt’s dreams will be part of this evening’s discussion, as they apply directly to him and as they represent the beautiful, even exquisite imagery of the dreaming self in general. [...] Ruburt used painting as an art in the dream rather than writing (pause), because it symbolized your joint ideas of art—to some extent, now—and allowed him to have you in his mind as he viewed the dream events.

Ruburt usually has a variety of bodily sensations, often simultaneously: some pleasant and relaxing, while others may be unpleasant. [...] I am aware that often neither of you thinks Ruburt is improving one whit—and of course that is part of the difficulty. [...] Ideally, Ruburt could completely recover with no discomfort. [...]

Now yesterday Ruburt told Frank that he would see him every other week, and he told a white lie to cover the real reason. [...] Ruburt felt he must have hurt Peg’s feelings, and this made him also feel somewhat abandoned, fearing that the friendship might simply lapse.

The letter re-aroused several states of feeling: time taken for “Unknown” 2, for one thing, but also Ruburt was struck by the gullibility of the correspondents, who were saying in effect that they could not lead their lives properly unless Ruburt could deliver the material. [...]

When you and Ruburt begin such a program as the pendulum, for example, it is valuable because of your joint initiation of it, and it served several excellent purposes. The best was probably the opening of fluent communication between the two of you, and Ruburt’s understanding that you would go full steam ahead to help him recover—his understanding that you did indeed want him to recover. [...]

Later now, in the last period of time, when Eleanor heard that Ruburt had sent the outline of a new book, Aspects, to Tam, she astounded Ruburt by remarks of great regret, and implications that Ruburt had made an error. Ruburt was quite surprised, since Eleanor had not suggested before that a manuscript not be sent to Prentice.

Yet these people were coming to Ruburt because of his psychic work, and his psychically inspired writing. [...] From the time Eleanor came she spoke with the words of Ruburt’s past, glowingly presenting the possibility of purely literary success, prestige, and cash.

A cruel trick, Ruburt felt, offering promises unfulfilled. Yet at the same time Ruburt was able to catch an inner glimpse of that world, its emptiness and the obvious existence of important dilemmas, ignorance, and that finally—it was simply another field of human endeavor.

[...] It also allowed Ruburt necessary emotional expression. Tim Foote represented literary recognition, yet he wrote to Ruburt to ask his psychic opinion on another psychic writer.

(Ruburt:) “Rachel, if you stay in that circle it is false security.”

(Ruburt:) “There will be light. [...]

(Ruburt:) “Ijust know it’s false security to stay in the group.”

(Ruburt:) “Because you have to go beyond that group at that time. [...]

To some extent Ruburt has identified with him. He was after all Ruburt’s mother’s father, and therefore the source out of which Ruburt’s mother came—the higher power, so to speak. [...] Ruburt as an infant, then, experienced the strength of the earthly source. [...] This automatically helps resolve certain conflicts Ruburt had involving male-female identifications. In other terms the past was altered, in that Ruburt now experienced the yearned-for mother love that was warm in its animal female understanding, supportive and strong enough to easily bear a child’s small ragings and hatreds.

[...] At one point Ruburt saw the ape still male, and then a portion of himself sitting at the library table, for in your position it is the animal instincts themselves that propel you to search for answers, to write books, to explore in your particular way. [...] Ruburt’s idea was still one of controlling those instincts and his “animal” abilities. On another level, because the ape was in the library, compassionate and understanding, Ruburt was seeing symbolically the force of his own physical nature, quite at home with itself, and at home in the psychic library of the mind.

[...] In learning to trust the changes in his body occurring now, Ruburt is at the same time learning to trust his own instincts, and the creaturehood of himself. [...] Ruburt has been reading about shamans. [...] In his own way however Ruburt began a shaman’s journey for himself, letting the psyche’s images become alive, and the inner workings of the mind made more obvious.

The ape on one level represented the animal instincts feared by Ruburt’s mother and grandfather as well, so Ruburt learned to look upon them askance. [...]

[...] It means that within the gradations offered you will not have a good time, but will compare what you have with a “perfect” freedom that Ruburt now does not possess. All of this because of your beliefs about Ruburt’s body—again, primarily Ruburt’s beliefs, but yours also. [...]

A note about the curb incident Ruburt mentioned (the other day while shopping at Centertown): it was precisely because each of you are still so hypnotized by effects that such incidents are charged to each of you. Your worrying about Ruburt 85% of the time does him no good and you less. You can see this quite clearly when Ruburt displays his side of the same picture, concentrating on symptoms.

So beliefs about Ruburt’s body on both of your parts, but of course primarily on Ruburt’s part, must be understood as beliefs that then cause physical experience. [...]

Now: the walking most clearly shows Ruburt’s beliefs and yours. The inner conditions are being righted, but Ruburt must see himself in his mind walking better—not perfectly but better for now, and he has begun in point of power to learn how to do that.

[...] It was indeed because you were so convinced that you envied Ruburt’s part. While you asked Ruburt to let me give you help for Ruburt’s condition, for some time the symptoms’ continuation was important to you for the reasons you now understand.

Now, my dear Joseph… You have also been jealous of Ruburt’s part in our sessions, and at times highly resentful, particularly of the attention he received when others were present. In the overall however while you were delighted on the one hand to have the sessions, you were jealous of the part Ruburt played.

Ruburt’s morning symptoms were also connected with you. You did not like to face morning at the Artistic Card Company, but Ruburt had the symptoms, you see. [...]

One note: Ruburt felt guilty over your second cat (Catherine) initially, feeling you did not want him. As you grew affectionate to the cat, Ruburt’s feeling vanished.

The caution can later work to Ruburt’s advantage, in that Fell is usually cautious in business relationships. [...] Undoubtedly Ruburt could receive better clauses if he pressed for them. [...]

The book will be successful in terms of beginning to establish Ruburt in reputation, and also successfully in financial terms. Because this contract is less than Ruburt could press for, the next contract will be a much better one, since the publisher will then feel rather embarrassed concerning this contract.

[...] You will both be better off however for this evening’s session, and I think you will notice an assured, calm, yet sure increase in Ruburt’s energies. [...] And if Ruburt does not watch out, then I will charge him 10 percent as his agent.

The relationship with Frederick Fell will be a good one, although the present contract reflects the publisher’s caution, as well as the money already received reflects an impulsive belief in Ruburt on the publisher’s part.

She projected this feeling to Ruburt also, particularly because Ruburt knew Don Wollheim. Fell was asking an exorbitant rate, she thought, for the first book; and Ruburt, she reasoned, would expect special privileges because of her contact with Wollheim, and so she got her back up and made sure no special privileges were given. [...]

Beside this, as you felt, there was a fear of Ruburt’s abilities. [...] She does not like to speak to Ruburt on the phone, fearing the direct contact. [...]

[...] Ruburt leapt back to his body to safety and normal consciousness. The thing therefore dissipated, for when Ruburt ran home he automatically withdrew his energy from it. [...]

Now the evil which Ruburt imagined he was projecting outward does not exist, but because he believed it did, he formed his materialization from his fears. [...] But this fact is Ruburt’s safeguard in his astral travels—as long as he remembers it.