“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(4:12. Her left foot was up in the air, rotating. Grunts and groans, talking to herself. The right leg moved a little. “The right leg can go too,” she chanted. “It’s all right, it’s all right....”

(After staff had taken her vitals—temperature 96—Jane’s feet started moving. She could feel it in her right leg—she cried out as a muscle spasm ran down the right leg to the toes. She could feel definite changes as the muscles in the doubled-up right leg tried to straighten out, as she put it. Her head and shoulders moved a little.

(4:10. I tried to move her right foot down a bit, to make her more comfortable, but it wouldn’t go. I could feel a lot of resistance, so it’s not ready yet. It must be protective, I said. At the same time, Jane almost cried as the right leg tried to move.

(4:45. But I had to take her cigarette away when her hips began moving. Left leg up. “It’s all right,” she said again and again to her right leg as it tried to move also. She cried out. Rest.

[...] When I awakened, something had suddenly cleared connected with the entire right side of my head and neck, involving the right ear, eye, jaw also. [...] These areas whatever they are, go through the right side of the body, downward; so that behind my right knee, for example, there is a sense of that mobility or easiness; and particularly in the right toe, though the entire right foot shares. (The entire right side isn’t so affected though—just these particular.... [...] movement of the right arm is also much freer.

Late afternoon: felt something in right neck ligaments release or drop down that seemed to make right eye better (at right edge).

Eye right still bothers; all right side but suddenly without my glasses I read even small print as well as I usually read with glasses; and when I got those bifocals I couldn’t read that well even with glasses. [...]

[...] “My right leg is moving, but I guess you can’t even tell by looking at it,” she said. [...] I told her the right leg was starting, and that was good. [...] “When the right foot moves, the right ankle, then I stop,” Jane said. [...] I reminded her that yesterday Seth had said the right leg discomfort was only temporary. She moved her head and torso up off the bed a bit, then groaned: “That right foot tried to come up off the bed.” [...]

(Then Jane told me that the night nurse, Toni, whom I’ve yet to meet, tried to help her lay on her right side last night, for the first time since she’d broken the leg. [...] But the fact that she’d moved onto her right side at all was a help, I said, another step along the way. [...]

[...] “It’s all right, don’t worry about the right leg,” Jane said several times as she lifted her left leg and rotated her foot at the ankle gently. [...]

[...] When I got to room 330 I saw that Jane had the patches back on her right elbow and the little toes of her left foot. [...]

[...] Later, had trouble coming from car to house; and I think my right leg had lengthened, so that it was longer than the left one (the other day it was the other way around). This would mean both have lengthened some; and that’s the side, the right one, I had the eye stuff and funny balance feelings on. Then during supper, a lot of motion right foot and very pleasant relaxation feelings—or at least, of contentment. PM doing correspondence; eyes some blurry; that right bunch of ligaments seems to be working....

[...] Lots of “work: going on right head/jaw/throat. [...]

[...] “It feels like the right knee wants to move more than it has,” Jane said. [...] Jane said the lower opening below her right knee had started draining a bit this morning, and staff had put a small bandage there. “You can feel the right foot wanting to come up off the bed, but only the toes makes it....” [...]

[...] “See the right foot? It feels like it could fly right up in the air.” [...]

[...] She said that when she was alone in hydro this morning she felt her right foot [of the broken leg] lift up spontaneously at the toes. [...]

[...] More and more the more inactive right leg and foot show signs of wanting to join in the daily dance of motion. [...]

[...] They begin around the back of my right ear like tiny circles suddenly turning; or clock wheels that had been wound too tightly, being released; then the motion spreads out in concentric circles, up to the right eye, and down to the right jaw. To a lesser extent, the same happens on the right side though, there, its only beginning. And there’s the feeling of circular ripples from the small wheels, going all the way down to the right foot and toes; and with this, the feeling that these small wheels, circles, or clock-works have been too tight; constricted; and that these in the head are the “master ones” and as they release, motion is being restored to some degree all over. [...]

The inherent rightness of your position cannot be underlined, but your appreciation of it, and your experience of that rightness can be underlined.

[...] Again, it is difficult to say what I want to while still trying to avoid contradictions at your end—and yet it seldom occurs to you that you might just possibly be doing exactly what you were meant to do, or that you are in exactly the right place and time and circumstances.

[...] Without check, it begins to gain its own momentum, so that you become less and less aware of what is right, and more and more begin to focus looking for proof of your conviction.

[...] That conviction closes off your understanding, so that your own rightness is not apparent, so that a vital dimension is lost, practically speaking.

[...] “When I do that, that’s when the right foot wants to, too, and that’s when it starts hurting. I felt her right leg; the whole thing was tense and hard, from close to the groin on down. [...]

(When I got to 330 this afternoon Jane pointed out to me that she wore no dressing on her right elbow or the little toes of her left foot. [...]

(Jane said her foot and ankle are sore, and bothered her during the night—the right one, that is—but that it feels okay at the moment. [...]

[...] She said that her right foot kept wanting “to push out” from its doubled up position. [...]

[...] Jane felt motions in her hips and right leg and stomach—I could see them. Her right leg, which hadn’t moved much, felt “hotter than hell inside.” [...] “Now I’ve got that electric feeling in my toes—the one on my right foot next to the little toe prickles like crazy.” [...]

[...] I offered support, touching her right arm without interfering with motion. Now her right foot was definitely moving, the best yet. [...]

[...] Her right foot started moving also. [...]

[...] The right foot moved and she began thrashing her body from side to side. [...]

I’m caught between writing these notes and continuing with my preface or whatever for James, which is coming along great; but guess this is more important right now. [...] Moisture-laden; then during the day those odd feelings in my head, mostly right side, continue. Once head felt very full on that side, then the moisture felt as if it were flowing downward; pooling in ear maybe, then down neck—all right side; then as I continue to write and try not to concentrate on all this—a feeling in right leg below knee of blockage for a moment; uncomfortable; I massage it just for a minute; the feeling of moisture then goes into right foot. [...] Go back to work; then—suddenly move my right foot and it moves up and down quite a bit more—and feel easier and... [...]

All of this changed my walking tonight; right foot trying to walk properly, but not synchronized... as I write, further new motion top of right foot. [...]

[...] My eyes were bothering me some, but I typed some James this afternoon; then Frank came in at 3:30; and Margaret B. came in to visit; I was annoyed; tired of people about, etc., but tried to be pleasant; as we chatted I felt my right foot and ankle changing. [...]

1. Right foot breaking loose inside; can feel bones bottom of foot when walking; put weight on it in a new way; and it moves with the knee. [...]

2. Area clearing by right ear; a spot long “plugged:, has relationship to throat, neck, ear, eye. [...]

PM: right side bothers me PM; leg, knee, and during night my right eye bothers me too. [...]

[...] Also a large (ligament?) in front of right leg by knee is gaining motion.

[...] Considerable dropping down of right foot and top tendon: but as I walk, knees felt much softer, moving more, from hips too, felt funny but great....

He felt, as a child now, that he had no rights. Nothing was his by rights. [...] The mother’s affections were not the child’s by right, but dependent upon how well the child cared or performed.

To a large extent in even small things therefore, he felt he had no rights per se, no right to ask you for example for anything. [...] He meant obviously that it must be replaced, but would never directly ask you to do so, feeling he had no right.

Only poetry seemed Ruburt’s by right. [...] The college scholarship was not Ruburt’s by right, but could also be taken away.

On one level then the sessions were an attempt to retain your love and give him a right to it. [...] This feeling however, having its roots in “lack of rights” and his alliance with you, also provides him with the unity upon which his life is based: the poetry, the psychic work, and yourself. [...]

***All afternoon, right side of head and body get “lighter”. Almost impossible to describe but it’s as if a million tiny things in my head were just off enough, so that the rest of the body didn’t work right, walk right; as if the body wasn’t synchronized and as if this afternoon it was fitting together again correctly; all the parts lining up or something. [...]

[...] continues all evening; some additional motion, standing, to the left; left arm feels ready to let go; new sensations right upper thigh; left knee. [...]

[...] “I’m just not up to it,” Jane said, “but there’s a lot of stuff he could give on the ulcer thing right now. [...] Maybe I should take a short break and try to plow right through it some night—get all I can get....”)

The right side is being highly activated—areas connecting hip, knee, and ankle are being correlated for necessary motions, all highly related. [...]

(“All right, Seth. [...]

(During lunch Jane’s broken right leg and right foot were bothering her considerably after I’d turned her on her back. [...]

(“We should have been smart enough to try it without following it up with the aspirin right away,” I said. [...]

[...] She was quite upset because of her discomfort in her right leg after I’d first turned her on her back before lunch.)

[...] I didn’t get to go over any of the other past sessions with her before I turned her on her right side at 4:30. [...]

[...] Right shoulder moved well. [...] Right arm in circle. [...] Right arm in circles again. [...]

[...] “It’s all right,” Jane repeated to herself. [...] “The right leg did do new stuff, though.” [...]

[...] Her right arm lifted and rotated. [...] She said the fingers on her right hand are trying to loosen, as I massaged them with Oil of Olay. [...]

(“All right. [...]

[...] Right after the session Jane initiated more leg motions. The right foot went along pretty well, too. [...]

[...] After Peg left Jane and I agreed that we’d ask Seth to comment on her broken right leg, and the stone. [...]

[...] Her right foot moved in sympathetic motion, too. [...]

[...] I then rubbed a second spot just to the right of the first one, and again her head pounded back and forth against the pillow. [...]

[...] “The right one wants to go, too.” [...] Her right arm began going in rapid circles, head bobbing. Then her left foot, then the left arm and the right foot moved. [...]

[...] But right now she wanted to do exercises. [...]

[...] Earlier I’d told Jane that for the first time I could see the vein crossing over the outside ankle bone of her right foot—another improvement. [...]

[...] But I’d presented myself with a clear little demonstration that Seth had been right, and that I should tell myself that Jane was being healed, and that I didn’t have to worry. [...]