“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

The pacing back and forth has always been a symbol and a manifestation of his insistence that he stay on his feet, this of course relating to his invalid mother; also a manifestation of control on his part as far as the sessions are concerned. [...]

[...] Ruburt connects this with your mother’s house.

(I got the idea for this little landscape while driving through the country in Pennsylvania a few weeks ago, on one of the regular trips Jane, my mother, and I take to see my father.

Ruburt provided himself with a background in which a parent (Jane’s mother) was steadily, chronically ill,³² and in which the medical profession with its beliefs was in constant sight. His mother was not medically neglected. [...]

32. In Volume 1, see Session 679 (with its Note 4, among others) for material on Jane’s early years with her mother. [...] Growing up, she was “frightened most of the time,” Jane told me as I prepared this note: She often lived alone with her bedridden mother, such periods being punctuated by a succession of itinerant housekeepers appointed by the welfare department. [...]

(It’s of interest to add that as far as she knows Jane was born right-handed, yet does recall her mother saying that she [Jane] was originally left-handed and had been taught to switch handedness. [...]

[...] You have, in the dream’s meaning, your mother given to explosive bursts of emotional expression, who it seems makes emotional demands. [...]

[...] (Pause.) You are to him in this existence a figure for lover, father and child, but he is also a figure to you of mother, mistress and child. [...]

[...] Your mother was a very heavy-handed father to you in that existence. [...]

(Pause.) Augustus’s mother noted only that her son seemed highly changeable. [...]

[...] And you will look into the faces of your brother and your father and your mother and find no meaning. [...]

Your mother felt that his creativity was a threat to stability, so maintaining your own creativity stubbornly, you still felt to some degree that it was a threat, that it would not pay off, and so you tried to clothe it in the garb of work, effort, regular hours, and stability, and to deny or play down its playful aspects.

You were quite struck by the lack of communication between yourself and your mother yesterday. [...]

[...] You are reacting, and have been, to some of your mother’s attitudes toward men who work at home, so you try to prove to yourself and others that this is really not only as difficult as outside work, but more so. [...]

[...] I simply wanted you to know that the dead can be quite lively, that they are not quiet and somber and that your mother only appeared tired because she knew you expected her to. [...]

[...] Now your secrets leave me completely untouched since I was an illegitimate mother several times, and as a father I sired many that I did not know. [...]

[...] In general, God loved little boys and girls with starched shirts, acceptable addresses, polished shoes, and fathers who made good money—it also helped if their mothers baked cookies for the PTA.

To some extent also the water symbol of the previous dream represented your mother’s womb, and was a connection to the penis symbol of the next dream. [...]

[...] You felt guilty because you have not offered to help paint your parents’ home, inside or outside, although your mother has dropped frequent and heavy hints. [...]

[...] Real mother’s sister.)

For many reasons having to do with your own past existence, and with your mother in this life, there was a basic insecurity and a feeling that you were not strong enough to survive on your own. [...]

[...] His eldest sister who is your present mother had a picture of some sort, a miniature in a locket, but it was with her when she drowned. [...]