“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Like the last deleted session, this one is Jane’s own dictation, not Seth’s. She’d mentioned doing some yesterday, but it hadn’t worked out. “I don’t know what to talk about,” she said at 11:05 AM, “now that you’re here. Something on Rich Bed, or just generally about those feelings I had yesterday after reading your introduction for Dreams....” When I mentioned that she could dictate something for the intro she said she couldn’t—not without reading it again. I didn’t advise that, for yesterday morning she’d ended up very depressed after pursuing it right after breakfast. Her mood had been very despairing for most of the day. “It’s devastating, I guess,” she said about the intro.

(I also said that I thought today’s material was the result of Jane’s reading that intro after breakfast yesterday, which had triggered her day-long black mood of despair. I thought the intro had triggered Jane’s material about her mother—for here Jane was, creating—or at least mimicking—her mother’s situation on her own. Jane’s material this morning seemed to show that her buried feelings about her mother were much stronger than she’s suspected, and more damaging. Perhaps we’ll discover that they play as strong a role in Jane’s dilemma presently, as my wife’s Sinful-Self material. For Jane the two sets of material-beliefs could be very closely related—seems like this would be almost inevitable.

(I told Jane that as I listened to it some of the material sounded contradictory. That is, the young girl must have had some feelings of guilt for leaving her prostrate mother, etc. I thought that was perfectly natural, but extending those feelings for the next 30 years would seem to be too much in nature’s scheme—as I’ve said before, it doesn’t seem to me that nature necessarily wants things to work that way, while making perfectly possible the fact that they can, if one chooses. This may be a case of things being redeemed on a “higher” level, I suppose—reminding me of material I’ve been dealing with recently in the intro for Seth/Jane’s Dreams.

[...] Figure out James intro, etc. [...]

[...] While waiting for the next session to develop, then, I’d busied myself working on her intro and my notes for Seth’s Dreams. [...]

(After supper we talked about whether she might want to resume dictation for her intro to Dreams. [...]

[...] While she was thinking it over—at my urging, periodically—I went into my writing room to do some work on the intro for Dreams. [...]

[...] This question has arisen because of my work on the intro for Dreams, of course, I have the feeling that it might be useful to get something on this so that I could use it to close the intro, but we’ll see. [...]

[...] She added that she often thought of trying something that way, but that she hesitated to ask me to take the time to sit around in case nothing happened, since she knew I was trying to work as much as I could on the intro for Seth’s Dreams. [...]

[...] I’ll do an intro if you want, and you can too, or you-know-who can also — but you’re going to be the one who does that book.”

[...] “Maybe I got tired this afternoon, working on the Intro for ‘Unknown.’ I’ve had messages from Seth the last few days about the book stuff for the session tonight, but what we got doesn’t fit any of them…. [...]

[...] I explained that I’d included material in my intro for Dreams that echoed Seth’s comments here as to why we became involved in the medical arena. [...]

[...] I could always contribute an intro also. [...]

(We have had two short “sessions,” during which Jane dictated passages for the intro to Dreams while I wrote down her words. [...]

[...] Was this to be the “redemption” Seth had talked about a couple of years ago, and that I’d tried to deal with in the intro for Dreams? [...]

[...] was unavailable, the point being that Prentice-Hall would like a name to do the intro. [...]

(Tomorrow I mail to Prentice-Hall chapters 7 and 8, plus the Intro, for Jane’s Psyche. [...]

[...] “Now there’s some stuff I want written down, but you won’t approve because it’s not for the intro—”

[...] Next I start going over what Jane has already done on the Intro and Epilogue. [...]

[...] Certainly she hadn’t sounded like she was giving her usual “own” dictation for the intro to Dreams, and certainly not like Seth. [...]

[...] By session time they were somewhat diminished, but were very inhibiting during the day, making me hesitate to do the things I’d ordinarily do without a second thought, such as drive to the post office to mail Jane’s intro for Sue’s book Conversations With Seth. [...]

(Tonight’s session started later than usual because of a mix-up in communications between us: I thought Jane was too groggy after supper as she sat at the card table in the living room, so I went to my room to work on the intro for Dreams—whereas she was waiting for me to come out and sit with her to see if we’d have some sort of session. [...]

[...] Jane could write a lengthy Intro or Preface if she cared to, explaining all the mechanics, the trances, etc., connected with the book’s production.