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[...] It is not just, again, that man does not live by bread alone, but that his life is intimately bound up with his need for creative expression—his need to develop as an individual, and therefore to affect his world. [...]

In Ruburt’s particular case, tense states of mind have been primarily responsible for his physical difficulty. [...]

[...] They gave some protection even from inner spontaneity, so that the inner abilities would be regulated, and they protected him also from any derogatory behavior on the part of his fellow men in the world. [...]

[...] Ruburt is beginning to get that through his head. [...]

Later I will go into the creation of other planes, and remember also that as man creates his own camouflage pattern he also works out his problems on the stage of history, which is also his creation. [...]

First, naturally, I have a few comments to make that will not only tie in Ruburt’s smoking habits with his present personality, but also to some extent tie in his present personality with past personalities.

His discipline is improving and has improved this life, especially since the ending of the adolescent period. His smoking, dear Joseph, is indulged in for entirely different reasons than those reasons which impelled you to smoke, and the habit is difficult for him to break, though he is breaking it and he has made strides that are important during the past year.

His circumstances of birth made it difficult for him to overindulge in the rich things of life, although his present mother used rich foods as compensation for other things, and this example opened Ruburt’s eyes and actually started him on the road to self-discipline.

Now: particularly, tell him not to become impatient, to proceed as he is, trusting his inclinations: and most of all trusting the validity on and the grace of his being.

[...] He has made his decision (to get well). [...]

[...] In a few days he has rather effectively broken the habit of worrying, which alone kept his weight down.

[...] there will be “a birth” of seemingly new concepts, simply because his old mental barriers kept him from making certain important connections, and an increasing system of communication between waking and dreaming states.

(12:05 AM.) Ruburt was correct in his deductions about his own situation. More will come to him as he writes his notes in the morning. [...] In fact, he progressed enough so that they continued in spite of his momentary confusion. [...]

He will be mainly concerned in an effort to prove his survival. His messages will be full of trivial but significant data that will make his survival plain to those he has left behind.

Ruburt has been intellectually involved in a strong manner with our whole relationship and experience, as he studied the galleys for his book. This is not particularly conducive to his intuitional activities, so I did not give him a break before our tests, but let the trance state continue. [...] This period just passing, of comparative rest on his part, from psychic activities, makes one point at least plain: our results, all in all during this period, have been good.

[...] In his comments he referred rather often to his own theory of spherical time. [...]

[...] He does not carry his precious spherical time idea far enough to begin with. His spherical time is like the surface of a sphere only.

He saw his mother, but the image was a projected one. [...] He felt he could not see properly, meaning he could not see his way out of the situation. Yet when he asked his mother, “Can you see?” it was obvious that she could.

[...] Continue to encourage his expression of impulses. [...]

He tried to loosen the hampering bedding, and could not, but a doctor —a young man—came to his aid, loosened the bedding. [...]

[...] The cats did not represent your physical cats (Mitzi and Billy Two), but old comfortable beliefs about the nature of the spontaneous self connected with ideas he picked up from his mother, in which cats represented the worst aspects of human behavior and impulses: they fawned upon you, yet were evil, and could turn against you in a moment.

The dream also shows his willingness to follow you in both cases, and emphasizes your confidence in his abilities. [...]

(It is Seth’s interpretation of Jane’s very interesting dream of this morning, and was given after he had finished dictation for the evening on Chapter 22 of his book: Seth Speaks—A Goodbye and an Introduction.

Ruburt needs you to do his best work, and the support that you give him. [...]

[...] This means that in your inner self you have a clear idea of the goals which Ruburt, for many reasons, some quite legitimate, hides from his practical self.

At the same time, the paranoid person can use his creative abilities in fantasies that seemingly boggle the minds of the sane — and those creative abilities have a meaning, for the fantasies, again, serve to reassure the paranoid of his worth. If in your terms he were sane, he could not use his creative abilities, for they are always connected with life’s meaning; and sane, the paranoid is convinced that life is meaningless. [...] Often the person labeled schizophrenic is so frightened of his or her own energy, impulses, and feelings that these are fragmented, objectified, and seen to come from outside rather than from within.

[...] It denies man the practical use of those very elements that he needs as a biological creature: the feeling that he is at life’s center, that he can act safely in his environment, that he can trust himself, and that his being and his actions have meaning.

[...] A person who feels that life has no meaning, and that his or her life in particular has no meaning, would rather be pursued than ignored. [...] If the paranoid might feel that he [or she] is pursued, by the government or “ungodly powers,” then at least he feels that his life must be important: otherwise, why would others seek to destroy it? If voices tell him he is to be destroyed, then these at least are comforting voices, for they convince him that his life must have value.

[...] Seth dictated his letter in April 1975, just after finishing his part of the work for Volume 2 of “Unknown,” and I presented it while introducing Volume 1. Jane still handles most of the mail herself, and she continues to send people Seth’s letter because we still think he presented excellent ideas in it.

In the 45th session for April 20, 1964, I find Seth saying: “Einstein traveled within and trusted his own intuitions, and used his inner senses. He would have discovered much more had he been able to trust his intuitions even more, and able to leave more of the so-called scientific proof of his theories to lesser men, to give himself more inner freedom.”

[...] He often commented upon his poor memory. He did much of his work through intuition and images. Not long after the outline for his Special Theory of Relativity was published in 1905, it was said that Einstein owed its accomplishment at least partly to the fact that he knew little about the mathematics of space and time.

[...] Only now are you beginning to question your methods, and even your questions.⁵ The true physicist would be able to ask his questions from his usual state of consciousness, and then turn that consciousness in other directions where he himself would be led into adventures-with-reality, in which the questions would themselves be changed. [...]

[...] Yet even then his mathematics did hold him back, and put a kink in his intuitions. [...]

[...] Man cannot mistrust his own nature and at the same time trust the nature of God, for God is his word for the source of his being — and if his being is tainted, then so must be his God.

The physician is also a private person, so I speak of him only in his professional capacity, for he usually does the best he can in the belief system that he shares with his fellows. [...] It has considered man a sinful creature, flawed by original sin, forced to work by the sweat of his brow.

The physician is also caught between his religious beliefs and his scientific beliefs. Sometimes these conflict, and sometimes they only serve to deepen his feelings that the body, left alone, will get any disease possible.

[...] When it saves lives, it does so because of the intuitive healing understanding of the physician, or because the patient is so impressed by the great efforts taken in his behalf, and therefore is convinced secondhandedly of his own worth.

Beside at least walking around the house, Ruburt is to do five minutes of exercise a day, of his choice; but devote it to the idea of expressing freedom for his body—not absolute freedom, but to experience that feeling. [...]

[...] There in that area he was not sure of his power. [...]

[...] There is nothing intrinsically wrong with his legs. [...]

[...] He is beginning to understand the validity of the self, and therefore is freer to use his power, realizing that it is a strength and not weakness.

(Pause at 11:36 PM.) He (Ruburt) is beginning to stand on his own two feet again, to accept his vision of the world and his own nature.

[...] This alone removed some strongly negative body beliefs that had still remained despite his understanding of the reasons behind the symptoms.

The yoga exercises encourage the muscles to stretch as well as relax, and so far his choice of exercises is good. [...]

[...] The man believes his feet will not be burned. [...] He ignores the evidences of his senses.

[...] I have said his feet touch the ground but not the flames. Actually, what I can only call an invisible shield protects him from the flames, so that his feet and ankles are surrounded by an aura that repels the fire actively. [...]

[...] For the time of his walk that space is empty. [...]

[...] His faith is the power that neutralizes the fire.

Tell Ruburt to tell himself that he can slowly but definitely make small adjustments in his thinking, feeling, belief — that even despite his panic he can feel those changes move around in his psyche.

Remind him that all his nature does indeed work to his benefit, and that signs of creative alterations and feeling begin to surface, like tiny shoots.

[...] He is in no way responsible for his mother’s problems, and no matter how strong his fears, universal energy lifts him up regardless of all else. [...]

He has free will to make any decisions that he is able to make (intently). This means that his free will is contained, given meaning, focused, and framed by his neurological structure. [...] That time reference, however, gives (underlined) his free will meaning and a context in which to operate. [...]

Each person, for example, is born with his or her uniquely individual set of characteristics and abilities, likes and dislikes. Those serve to organize individual action in a world where an infinite number of probable roads are open—and here again, private impulses are basically meant to guide each individual toward avenues of expression and probable activities suited best to his or her development. [...]

In time’s reference, the private purposes of each individual appear also in the larger historical context, so that each person forms his corner of his civilization—and all individuals within a given time period have private and overall purposes, challenges that are set, probable actions that they will try to place within history’s context.

[...] His experiences must be neurologically structured. [...]

[...] Ruburt has chosen his, and you have chosen that his reality be involved with yours. [...]

[...] Ruburt’s ideas of owning a house do not match his ideas of dedication to work. That is why his interpretation is a trailer. [...]

Ruburt was already leery of putting his physical condition to the test of the trip, and so easily acquiesced, worried also that perhaps he would lose out on Aspects, that was already contracted for.

[...] Ruburt instead sees a trailer by the ocean, with each of you writing and painting—his vision, because that establishment requires no housekeeping and a small cash outlay.

[...] This would be his name, not the other twin; that is because he had this telepathic communication with his twin, he has this sense of wanting unity within himself very strongly, at the same time a sense of being divided. A strong inclination to go ahead independently with his ideas, balanced by the desire to find security within the system, and the fear to leave it. His intellectual freedom, he feels, exists only so long as it is cushioned by the feeling of security of the organization... [...]

[...] The twin who was in the military found his sense of identity as a soldier within the system, but he had great faith in the system... [...] Also you picked up his desire to go to battle for, only in this case you are using battle for ideas that you are struggling for. [...]

The gentleman who wrote you from Canada (Vincent Vycinas)—the writer—is living out his cultural agony. (The name of VV’s book is Our Cultural Agony.) In his case the drugs are being used so that they can be blamed for a malaise that is spiritual. [...] He feels that he has lost his power, because he does not believe that the individual, with all his capacities, really has any effective power in the cultural world. [...]

[...] Practically, the gums are being regenerated, as the rest of his body definitely is. If he does not have his teeth out, he will probably lose two more that are very loose—but not for one or two years. By that time the rest of the teeth will be solid enough to stay in his head, and be operative. [...]

[...] Problems that existed in the past will not be encountered in the future to anything like the same degree when Ruburt begins his encounter with the world again—for his and your feelings and beliefs have changed enough.

[...] He is to send us a copy of his tape. [...]

[...] He felt that you would interpret any such feelings on his part as aspersions against your manhood. He was finally driven to voice some of these attitudes as the years passed; particularly after your 50th birthday and his 40th, he became literally panic-stricken, yet you did nothing, to his way of thinking.

[...] Therefore behind all of this is his high estimation of your abilities and work, and his refusal to see you trapped so that you do not have full time to use them.

[...] Some of the difficulty here had to do with the fact that Ruburt uncovered his body in front of others, which to him made him feel vulnerable, pointed up the contrast (with others); he would not let the normal feelings have release. He should have cried quite honestly in front of you, and you should have then tried to reassure him of those positive elements of his appearance.

Success to him now would automatically put you in a poor light in his eyes. [...]

[...] He can appreciate his health as he can appreciate the air, without feeling that either is going to be taken from him. He is not concerned with his health because he takes it on trust unthinkingly, as he takes his life on trust.

In his “as if” game, have Ruburt imagine he is having his period, buying his Tampax. [...]

Spending money as Ruburt has been doing, and his freedom with his creative-writing money, will give him more. [...]

[...] Ruburt considers his writing a part of him. [...]