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[...] He lost faith in his physical performance, and got out of the habit of asserting himself physically.

It places his mind on physical performance, and leads automatically into the future in a positive way as he achieves in simpler exercises and then goes on. [...]

The emphasis in these should always be upon the achievement, and the exercises follow his growing capacities. [...]

His idea of noting down the pleasures or good points of the day should be maintained. [...]

[...] He was also using his writing ability, or putting his writing ability at the hand of the material. [...]

When Ruburt is finished with his own book and I am done with mine, a vacation should come in any case, and will be not only acceptable but most beneficial.

His attitude is changing, and has been, and with your help it can change for the better. [...]

When you were ill and did not have sexual relations often, he feared that his desires then could even lead him to physical unfaithfulness, and so on all counts the habit of repression and of physical repression also built up. [...]

Now he adjusted very well to these, but an inner portion of his self, you see, is thoroughly outraged, considering all parents enemies from whom one should and must legitimately run. Intellectually, he understood that changes had to be made in his attitude, and he tried to treat your family kindly, and consciously to make up to his mother by being nice to yours.

When you were ill the incident rearoused his fears concerning his mother, you see. [...]

Now running away from problems, literally in space, had always been his answer to everything. One day he could run away from his mother, and he did. [...]

From that situation be could not or would not run, but in his mind he saw the two of you running free of all of them. He gave little expression to his feelings toward your mother, in a mad rush to get to the respectable and responsible attitude he thought he should have.

[...] This experience of his was taking time from your art as well as his own, to his way of thinking. [...] In part his loyalty to you was connected, and his responsibility as he saw it to keep you focused as an artist, and to let nothing distract you. [...]

He remembered his mother’s constant criticism of him, but barely recalls his scandalized disapproval of her swearing, for example, on his return home. He threw himself headlong into the Catholic reality, pursued it with great stubborn diligence, used it as a framework of conventionality in which he could allow his mystic nature to grow.

[...] At his preference and demand, he changed from a public to a Catholic school after the third grade.⁴ This was against his mother’s judgment. [...] Ruburt, at that age — when he changed at the third grade — had quite a will then, in that he forced his mother to acquiesce to the change of schools. [...]

He was always highly imaginative, as was his mother. His mother was socially defiant, flaunting her beauty with the “disreputable” elements of society. Much later, Ruburt would date the “disreputable” men in his environment, yet neither mother or daughter saw that parallel. [...]

(Long pause.) “The church” was not a hypothetical entity, but was encountered through Ruburt’s experience with the priests who visited, their effect upon his life and his poetry, and with the entire fabric of a young intense daily life. If the church became upset with what Ruburt wrote or read, then Father Ryan burned one of his books, or argued with his poetry, for example, so all of that was living emotional content. [...]

Ruburt’s creative abilities still had those classical models, yet because of his mind’s originality and his natural intuitive nature; those creative abilities were also fueled by unofficial information: he was always to some extent in strong connection with the knowledge possessed by his natural person—and that knowledge kept seeking expression. [...]

The creative abilities must revolve largely about man’s definition of himself, his source and purpose, and all of your Western literature and art has revolved about the concept of the Sinful Self in one way or another. The Shakespearean plays are an excellent case in point, even when they concern even older heritages, so the creative artist in any field has certain creative traditions that become classic models for his art and that of the world. [...]

Now: even as a young person, Ruburt was the type of person who was considered out of place, rebellious, or even slightly dangerous in any Roman Catholic congregation—particularly in the time of his own youth. [...]

[...] The fingers, connected with his work… Here he refused to budge. [...] They still represented his feeling that his writing was a threat to you, and were a reminder of the whole situation. They were also fat however, for he still considered them powerful in regards to his work.

[...] Conditions in his own past prepared him for this docility, for which indeed his mother ridiculed him frequently; and yet the symptoms themselves, you see, were a way to fight you. [...]

[...] There is a strange, indeed rock-bottom refusal here, on his part to hurt anyone deeply, for whatever reason. It is impossible for his personality therefore to do anything he feels (underlined) would hurt the one person in the world with whom he feels close.

[...] (Long pause.) He must learn to handle normal aggressions, and yet when he is operating spontaneously his natural exuberance is a mechanism for such release. [...] He felt that any success of his was a threat to you. [...]

[...] The building up of trust, however, will automatically accelerate Ruburt’s improvements, minimize his discomfort, and hence add to his confidence and performance. He should also read the last few of our sessions, and I have listed my suggestions this evening for his more convenient use.

The impulses will automatically lead to Ruburt’s greater understanding of himself, and each one in its way will be a signal to act or not to act from Framework 2—all in line with a greater pattern that seeks Ruburt’s full physical recovery and the fulfillment of his abilities.

2. Another important way of building his trust is the following—and, in parentheses, (I have given you this material before, but I am organizing it for your current use). [...]

3. Thirdly, he has begun lately to sense how this is done, and that is to remind himself of the mysterious effortlessness behind his life, so that he does not try too hard. [...]

His struggles with his nurses (which are violent) are struggles to escape physical bonds, and to be away. He did not use his vitality in his manhood joyfully or fully or explosively, either in work, nor purpose, nor family. [...] He paced himself out of jealousy of his energy, so that it outlived him. [...]

This was on his part simply an attempt for spontaneity. [...] Now this is simply a minor and temporary element, originally because he has begun his Thursday classes and is therefore further regulated.

[...] He enjoyed last evening’s spontaneous session (for Jane’s Tuesday night ESP class), and such sessions, while they do not particularly add to our material, replenish his creative efforts and give him a sense of freedom. The spontaneity often, though not always, helps to focus his abilities, and provides us with an excellent trance state. [...]

His first name is Edward or perhaps Edwin. His last name, a strange one with a foreign connotation: Z E N O, (spelled) is as close as I can come, though I believe that is only the first part of a larger name. [...]

[...] It became his duty to repress spontaneous feelings that might lead him astray. Before, those found expression in his dealings with the outside world—but those dealings, he felt, were no longer necessary.

He further unstructured, shaking up his consciousness by not sleeping. [...] Lest he be tempted by his new house, he felt poorly, even for him, yet he saw through what he was doing, and he has begun an awakening of consciousness that is now in the process. [...]

His mother banked upon her femininity, or so it seemed, stressing what Ruburt thought of as feminine wiles. [...]

[...] These slants fit in with his artistic purposes as he understood them. [...]

Even the electrical charges have changed, and his chemical properties. [...] We will therefore give you a rest, and to Ruburt, I am very pleased at last with his progress in this respect. It should be noted that during this period he did not fall considerably below his usual performance with me in our sessions.

Ruburt is completing the final stages of his recovery, and is in a state of lassitude. It is a healthy condition of almost complete relaxation, signifying the release of his physical system from the mental hold of fear that has made it comparatively rigid up until now.

[...] The ordinary evening’s rest will just about complete his cycle he began this morning. [...]

(10:10.) In the Last Supper when Christ said, “This is my body, and this is my blood,” He meant to show that the spirit was within all matter, interconnected, and yet apart — that his own spirit was independent of his body, and also in his own way to hint that he should no longer be identified with his body. For he knew the dead body would not be his own.

[...] He caused the wounds to appear then upon his own body, and appeared both physically and in out-of-body states to his followers. He tried, however, to explain what had happened, and his position, but those who were not in on the conspiracy would not understand, and misread his statements.

[...] Jane and I had grown very used to living with Seth’s production of his book; we had come to look forward to each development. [...] I can feel — I know — that Seth’s going to end his book soon now, probably tonight, and I don’t want it to happen, I guess.” [...]

[...] Christ then changed his mode of behavior, appearing quite often in out-of-body states to his followers. [...]

I recommend that he serve his notice to his Mr. Miller, though he on his own does not feel quite ready to do so. [...]

[...] The classes represent an encounter on his part, with the rest of the world on his terms. [...]

[...] For too long it has represented the place where he faced the results of conflict—his symptoms.

[...] Ruburt was strongly attracted to your new rug because of the contrast, this in itself allows steady and harmonious expression of his own personality.

[...] His personality, like your own, has benefited in ways you cannot measure. As you have always known, his attitude toward our book represented, of course, his attitude toward our sessions. Intuitive freedoms should now be realized on his part. [...]

Knowing all this, it is still necessary for the husband to continue his efforts, for his own benefit.

(She said she knew from Seth that Seth had frightened Peg somewhat; that is, his approach had been one she was unaccustomed to, and it would have been better had he talked with Peg about Jesus, His love and healing power, etc.

I did indeed, only now, tell Ruburt that if your Roosevelt held his fireside chats, I could hold mine, even without the benefit of a fireside.

[...] (To me:) You are largely the one to be satisfied, for Ruburt will find joy in almost any environment that he considers his own; you see he personifies in a way that you do not; any place he is in is his place, to his mind, as this is his yard. So any dwelling that you find he will personify and make his own, and therefore your own, if you follow me.

[...] You are pleased with his obvious productivity with plants, outside. [...] This annoyed you greatly, but now to some extent you identify with those leanings, and look down upon the garden when Ruburt does not find his way to follow the gardening rules.

He thinks of this place in terms of a dwelling rather than as land, but because his attitude is not charged and because he does love land, he is able to enjoy what land there is. Now he compares this place for example to his childhood home, as subconsciously you compare it to yours, whether you know it or not. [...]

[...] It does not bring about his creative nature. Now real estate would, and he could double his investments easily, for he has a good idea of people in relation to dwellings, and of population movement. [...]

The boy was briefly with you for his own reasons. [...] He wanted his mother to look inward. He was at one time, he was at one time his father’s uncle.

[...] He is not an infant to be pitied, nor a child taken from you before his promise was achieved. He was a personality who left you when his own reincarnations were finished. [...] He will not return, but go to another reality where his abilities can be used to more advantage.

[...] His vitality was here strongly (words missed), but it was not in physical terms... literally he deprived himself of blood so that he could live on his own terms, and so that the mother and father could live in ways that they have forgotten. There was no witness there, and he expected his death to bring out your own strengths.

[...] You did not save his life one time, you helped him save his soul, and he gallantly returned the favor; for he at one time was tempted to use his abilities for power and to use the priesthood for gain, and on that occasion you stopped him. [...]

[...] Therefore, he turned his efforts to bettering his fellow man’s physical state. He butted his head against the government. In a fashion this involved old Christian principles, of course, as pure socialism does—so that a man shared his goods with his fellows, and all land belonged to the people, so that private property—in those terms—would not exist.

[...] As Jane said, “Scott conserved his energy, but he seemed to do well enough, although his movements were slow, especially walking and sitting down. But he appeared to have the use of all his faculties. [...] The reasons behind his interest are brought out in tonight’s session, and in Jane’s own brief summary of the visit in her notes. [...]

Nearing had turned away from such goods and products, yet he had in his earlier years thought that these if were only distributed equally the world would be changed for the better. He is a symbol of the frontier spirit, and many youngsters through the years have been helped through his efforts. [...] And that it would continue after his death. And in his own fashion, he passed on some energy to Ruburt as a gift to help him in that endeavor. [...]

[...] So either Seth is in error here, or his words carry a symbolic meaning. [...]

[...] His eyes are improving. His interest and improvement in the writing area will also help his general condition, for many reasons. [...]

[...] He was then free in his second imagining. Physically his ideas of motion, however, moved from the house—highly important. [...]

[...] He has doubted his ability for reasons given in the past, and in the past, to some extent you helped him, and you did not reinforce his sense of physical ability. [...]

[...] At one time, however, he made his own tape recording, with his voice giving himself suggestions in the background of a record, and he played that while he was writing.

(10:47.) The tax man is a well-meaning individual, far from a rogue, with his own problems, and in the dream this information is realized by you, and hence picked up by Nebene. Joyce, by his very characteristics, in his way stood for the confused but well-meaning-enough society. Ruburt felt he had paid his dues, physically speaking, and was done with that.

[...] Mentally see him in his studio, at drawing table. Imagine and visualize the energy all around the corner of the house and sky, rushing toward him; then am surprised when mentally the top of his head comes neatly off, like a lid from a jar. [...] I thought he was in his studio and that’s where I saw all this. [...]

[...] As the evening progressed we became involved in some pretty heated and involved discussions about Three Mile Island, man’s greed for money, his basic good intent, and related issues. [...] I think I made some good points; even Bill said he probably exaggerated man’s greed, yet he wasn’t about to change his views. [...]

Now: Bill Gallagher, with his beliefs about that world, in his mind joined it. [...]

He protected himself against early marriage or child bearing by identifying the male writer to some extent with his own writing image. This provided needed leeway in the formation of his ideas, and allowed him to leap free of the stereotyped beliefs about femininity that otherwise could have hampered him. The novelist, the science fiction writer—these were male images needed in the time of his youth.

2.) Three times a week, hot towels should be applied to the knees, and this will help his legs—but also clear up his head. [...] There is nothing wrong with his eyes. [...]

[...] Ruburt’s held-over feelings about femininity make him try to be overly respectable in his work. [...] Your own seriousness about work in the past, your own attitudes, linger on in his. [...]

4.) For three hours I want him to write whatever he wants, freeing his mind from thoughts of his symptoms, and from responsibility.

(Willy by now had made Jane cry out in vexation at his attacks; his claws were sharp upon her bare feet. [...]

Incidentally, the book that Ruburt was reading did have something to do with bringing on his condition, and involved a morbid fascination on his part, bringing out many old resentments. [...]

The wry neck enabled Ruburt to identify with his mother, and therefore avoid such punishment. At the same time, the wry neck itself inflicted a punishment in place of the imagined and feared greater punishment which Ruburt felt his mother intended, the imagined punishment being a basic and infantile terror of being pulled back into the womb.

I will go into the reasons for his trouble during our next session, as I do not believe he can bear up to it this evening.