“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

[...] The entity is the overall identity of which his personality is one manifestation — an independent and eternally valid portion. In these communications, therefore, Ruburt’s consciousness expands, and yet focuses in a different dimension, a dimension between his reality and mine, a field relatively free of distraction. Here I impress certain concepts upon him, with his permission and assent. [...]

[...] Before the session she said, “I still get stage fright when I think of Seth doing this book on his own.” And when the session began, Seth did at once resume work on “his” book.)

Some of my energy is also projected through Ruburt, and his energy and mine both activate his physical form during our sessions, and now as I speak these sentences. [...]

There is within his personality a rather unique facility that makes our communications possible. I will try to put this as simply as possible: There is within his psyche what amounts to a transparent dimensional warp that serves almost like an open window through which other realities can be perceived, a multidimensional opening that has to some extent escaped being clouded over by the shade of physical focus.

The workings of consciousness, however, may seem mysterious to you both, but the decision to continue the book means that Ruburt is ready to accept the power of his being, this will indeed materialize with his health. The health is there, and neither of you quite understand the nature of his and your achievement, despite your backgrounds privately and in relationship with your culture. There have been tragedies that did not occur in your life and his because of your understanding.

Now: distorted as it is, and it is distorted, the science of mind book, coming from outside of himself, in those terms, is valuable, for it reminded him of his own power. He was afraid that despite his efforts he could not get better. [...] His symptoms represent for him the one point of vacuum, comparatively speaking, where the acceleration that has otherwise occurred has not as yet clearly penetrated; and jointly they represent the area in which your combined beliefs have not caught up to your knowledge.

His own personality has indeed blossomed in all aspects, in terms of relating with others, and personal creativity. [...] He was quite correct in his written statement concerning the development of consciousness.

[...] He was afraid of using his own power completely for that reason; and then he became afraid that it would not work if he did.

Ruburt must realize that his power and energy can, and indeed is, changing his body for the better. [...]

[...] The massager is very beneficial now, for his body is pliable enough now to respond—but more, as he used it recently the intent to relax is there. The mechanical aid is good: he is safely seated, and he has also used the occasion to relax his mind.

[...] You can indeed now, to some extent, serve as a leader to Ruburt in certain areas, where before you feared that might inhibit his independence, and you felt he needed the freedom to grow.

[...] So his overt action also represents latent action of your own that you are not expressing because you have too much sense. [...]

Even then, however, the subconscious would not be forced too far, and a good deal of the time the sweaters sat in his drawer. They were not his style, they were his mother’s style and in wearing them he felt further alarm that he was being cast in her world, so to speak.

At various times when working he went without a bra because his shoulders bothered him, and he wore one of his mother’s sweaters. Now his mother never wore a bra, you see. [...]

[...] Possibly another reference to Tom’s story about his car. [...] Since his first tale to Jane we have heard subsequent stories about his car, the most recent being how he stripped several gears.

[...] The knee symptoms were a later development in this present series of symptoms, his way of punishing himself for his previous lack of understanding. [...]

Some of this has to do with the cultural climate that colored his attitudes. He puts his intuitions in as intellectual terms as possible. To his way of thinking this gives them greater acceptability, strength and durability. [...]

The tests with Instream, and your own, precipitated a situation in which his intellect was constantly checking his intuitive information. Because of his own background this precipitated a situation in which one portion of the self was constantly scrutinizing another portion with a jaundiced eye.

One of the reasons why he did not understand that the spontaneous intuitive self was the deeply creative and therefore deeply stable self, was that he identified it with his idea of femininity as he unfortunately misunderstood it. [...] As a youngster he had no family background or money, and his need to be looked up to and held in esteem could not wait.

He set himself up then as an intellectual, and this became his badge of respectability. It also held a more masculine than feminine image in his mind however, for the reasons as given.

[...] Ruburt’s students have helped him, strangely enough, because they helped reinforce his faith in me. [...] His reaction to their needs resulted in added confidence on his part as he sees them helped.

His work with the material can and should weld his emotions and intellect together in a strong powerful force, but not when he attempts to copy others, or on his own uses words that personally annoy him, to express or interpret the material to others.

[...] Stay away from his mother until I tell you. [...] (Our cat Willy jumped up into Jane’s lap.) Psycho-Cybernetics was good for him, for it stopped at least some of his conscious brooding. He must rediscover however his spontaneous self for these distorted and adopted and superficial ideas—underline superficial—of religious rules inhibited him.

[...] It was his problem and he worked it out in his own way. [...]

[...] The difficulty with Ruburt’s arms and hands bother his typing now, showing him finally in no uncertain terms that the system has served its purpose long ago, and that his creativity is dependent upon psychological and physical mobility. The symptoms have been aggravated to some extent, then, bringing to the forefront of his mind the very problems that require his attention. [...]

[...] (Long pause.) His difficulties with inspiration arise when he forgets his ideas of natural enjoyment and replaces those with the idea that “he has a responsibility to use his abilities”—as if he would not fulfill them motivated by his own enjoyment and love. [...]

[...] In Ruburt’s case the idea of responsibility became far more pervasive, resulting in what I have referred to as being almost a superself image—an image composed of his ideas of the kind of person he should (underlined) be in his position. That image largely at least ignored his own likes or dislikes. [...]

As he began to understand to some degree that he need not be expected to do tours and so forth, he thought of the radio shows as alternate ways of fulfilling his responsibility. The information I gave about his arms in the past was correct. It is also true, however, that his hands and arms became more aggravated in their condition precisely because he did not want to be able to hold the phone to do an hour show. [...]

[...] This is Ruburt’s penance, you see, put upon him by this other part of his personality. If he succeeds he must pay, for if he does not pay, if he does not willingly submit to his own punishment, then there is eternal damnation.

[...] He is deeply afraid of finishing his book for fear it will sell. He sends out messages pressing for the success of his original book, and sends out equally strong ones urging that it not be accepted, that it is not a huge success. [...]

I was enough like his Father Traynor to be safe, and without me his psychic abilities would not have matured at all. [...]

[...] His needs and personality were the reason, however, that he could communicate with me. [...] I have literally held his personality together for some time, in relative balance. [...]

[...] What he felt this week, and in beginning his book, was the rousing of his energies. [...] Now when he feels a sense of exhilaration—he knows the subjective feeling I refer to—then have him direct it, that energy, to his arms. [...]

[...] Have him do it out of the corner of his mind, as it were, and whenever it comes to his mind.

[...] The book that you have just received from Prentice (Psychic Discoveries Behind the Iron Curtain), will have an important effect upon Ruburt, and a beneficial one, helping to increase his confidence in his own abilities.

You have been holding on to your own symptoms while Ruburt still has his. [...] Once they were meant to promote your psychological understanding, but now they can only impede your progress; and you are also slightly resentful at Ruburt, feeling that he is somewhat responsible, by still maintaining his symptoms, for your own.

[...] Ruburt will be relieved, and quite joyous, when he does start up his active writing again. The most important thing, however, is that he trust and follow his impulses. [...] The feeling of creative pleasure as he paints, and follows the impulse, relieves his mind, takes it off his body, and automatically regenerates other creative impulses. [...]

[...] The body has set up its own rhythms of recovery, since it is now sure that that is what Ruburt wants, and his attitude toward his body has greatly changed for the better.

[...] Ruburt should not be overly concerned at his locomotion, walking, in any given day. For one thing, his overall increased activity chairwise provides an overall general increase of strength and flexibility. [...]

(With a wry, quiet look:) I would like Ruburt to soak his knees following the session, and Ruburt wanted me to add that he is most appreciative of your efforts in his behalf. [...]

[...] If he now uses psycho-cybernetics as applied to his work and to the (Seth) book, and makes a definite effort with those methods to focus all of his energy into the book, the symptoms will simply fall away, and quickly. [...] Somewhat earlier his energies were so depleted that it would have been more difficult for him to do this in a rather sweeping manner, and this is what I suggest.

[...] Such a venture would also help Ruburt feel that he was holding his own financially in the universe. This would be good for his confidence as well as for the bank account.

(Yesterday afternoon and evening, May 20, we had as guests Reverend James Crosson and his wife; they visited us at the end of a lecture tour that had taken them from their new home in Florida to their summer camp in the Berkshires. [...]

[...] Part of it was addressed to the Reverend and his wife, and was quite successful. [...]

In the past at times you did get various symptoms when Ruburt began to improve, and because of his lack of confidence and the state of his beliefs, he backtracked. [...]

[...] Beside that, Ruburt was able to help you to some degree—while before you felt that he could not because of his concentration upon his own problems.

You made some comments very important to him—further illuminating how his past beliefs colors his thoughts, so that he looked at the worst side of the given picture. [...]

[...] As you know, I do not make predictions, yet he has reached a point with his beliefs, and an efficiency with some methods of implementing them, that I foresee a dramatic change for the better.

This involves on his part not a conscious, but a subconscious change of habit. [...] No one is endeavoring to tamper with his personality, however, and it is his natural reaction to turn aggression, when it arises, outward in some manner, while he is almost superstitiously careful that it not be directed at another individual.

Without Ruburt’s now and then, really rather petty explosions, the stability of his working habits and the stability of emotional reactions would not be nearly as regular. [...] Nor, my dear Joseph, are these explosions, though this is quite an exaggerated phrase, nor are these his alone; for he takes up also your hidden frustrations and angers, feels them deeply, though consciously he does not know this; and he then in these small explosions rather harmlessly dispels pent-up, small but potent emotional bombshells that belong to you both.

[...] And when he is angry he does not want to give his anger up. What will vanish is any feeling on his part of being subconsciously drained, as he does feel occasionally, and only when he is perturbed at something else.

This may not seem so to you, but because subconsciously and basically, though not consciously, Ruburt trusts both his own intuition and the validity of our sessions. He will not allow the rambunctious portion of his personality to upset our schedule, but because he trusts all this subconsciously, he will not be as disturbed as you are if a session is missed.

This simply means that his self-confidence is greater than any doubts he has. In the past his doubts about his body have greatly outweighed his self-confidence, and that is the reason for this material and that given in our last session.

[...] He can keep his spirits up considerably by remembering to devote three hours to writing—James or otherwise, but he should not lapse into worrying about his condition. [...] Some days he will know that his body wants to relax, but even then the walking should be attempted, for the improvements will have an opportunity to work along with the body mechanism in operation.

[...] As I told you once before, his “main life” was not here, in your terms. (See Volume 1 of “Unknown” Reality.) In the realities in which you saw him in the dream state, he was a wanderer—lonely, from your viewpoint, not his. [...]

You did not see his reality as a personality apart from the fact of his being your father. [...]

His early background was relatively different: an invalid mother, no father, on welfare, et cetera, so his environment alone to some extent placed him in a different light in the eyes of his contemporaries. [...] His unusual vitality, abilities, and intelligence were apparent, but they were not conventional abilities. [...]

Now, what would that extreme behavior consist of “at its worst?” He felt that if he were a person given to extremes, then to use his abilities he must apply due discipline so that his head was not turned, so that he did not become a victim of fame, as many other writers and artists did—or so it seemed. It certainly should be obvious to Ruburt now that his personality contains some quite conservative aspects—a marriage going into two decades and more does not exactly make one worry about promiscuity. [...]

In the past, Ruburt didn’t realize fully that his nature was both flamboyant and conservative—that his nature was protected by a natural inner caution that would make the path for his flamboyancy clear. [...]

Ruburt’s intelligence was not one to follow blindly, and so his marks were not outstanding. [...] Neither did the circumstances surrounding his college dismissal come about as the result of any extremist behavior.

For upon his shoulders rests the burden of what he owns, and he fears with a steady, nearly unending panic that he will not be able to keep this, through ill health. [...] You do not realize that he has long ago made a bargain to give his family those things which he feels will content them, only to find them less content. For to deliver these things he must, because of his nature, deprive them of other more important considerations.

You would feel twice as trapped in his circumstances. He wants to share with you what he has, and in your visits, to which he and his wife look forward, in your acceptance of his hospitality and food and drink, he hopes for some justification.

The back problem was particularly easy for Ruburt to pick up, because of his mother and the arthritis, and because of this Father Ryan, whose back was injured. He constantly picks up and reacts to your moods, subconscious as well as conscious, interprets them, and translates them into physical realities, because of your psychic closeness and his strong telepathic abilities.

[...] His book is to be published, and since he is a female the book is his baby. [...]

The dream representing his grandfather symbolically allowed him to go back to the past in this life, to a time of severe shock—his grandfather’s death—which occurred when he was beginning to substitute scientific belief for religious belief, wondering if his grandfather’s consciousness then fell back into a mindless state of being, into chaos, as science would certainly seem to suggest. [...]

In the dream his grandfather revives. His grandfather survived in a suit too large, which means that there was still room for him to grow (as I’d suggested to Jane ). He [Ruburt] had a small experience of hearing a voice speak in his mind [yesterday]—a voice of comfort, all he remembered of quite legitimate assistance he received from other personalities connected with the French life, that came as a result of the French dream. [...]

[...] (Long pause.) Ruburt well knew even as a child that such structures had served their time, and his poetry provided a channel through which he could express his own views as he matured. [...]

[...] His coat is glossy and beautiful. I admired the tender loving care with which he addressed himself to each portion of his body.

His poetry acted in some regards as a stimulator. That breakthrough, you might say, with perhaps some exaggeration, was a life saver, for without some such expansion Ruburt would have felt unable to continue the particular brand of his existence. It is not possible to say in words what one person or another looks for in life, or what unique features best promote his or her growth and development. [...]

With his mother dead it seemed highly unsporting to cast, for example, any aspersions or express fresh anger against injustice. In the meantime, his own understanding was growing, and his creative capacities. [...]

(10:17.) Ruburt was not responsible for his mother’s reality, for her characteristics, reactions, or beliefs. He was not responsible for her marriage, its breakup, for his mother’s illness, again, or for the entire “tragedy” that he sees as his mother’s life. [...]

(A one-minute pause at 10:22.) Ruburt chose his environment. Ruburt chose his parents for his own lifetime: he was born in the right place at the right time. [...]

The basic action of the first dream involved his reception, his clear perception, of several voices within his head. [...] They presented excellent evidence of his own abilities, for they were crystal clear and distinct, and without distortions.

In the dream itself, he goes into his room and discovers that his ability is as much a part of him as his breath, and that he cannot turn it off and on at will, or turn it off as one would a radio. [...]

[...] However his own doubts changed the action within the dream, and he reacted to his doubts and ignored the earlier portion of the dream entirely.

[...] This was an attempt to build his confidence, and to show him how clearly reception can be if his abilities are fully utilized.

[...] Ruburt also believed in his psychic work, you see, and was fully committed to it. He developed some physical symptoms, and following through with his beliefs he is working them out on his own. He saw for himself how they perfectly mirrored his inner image of himself.

Now: Ruburt also saw that he believed he had to justify his existence through his writing. This because he did not trust the basic right of his being as it existed, and does, in space and time. These old beliefs had not caught up to his newer ones.

As he worked with his beliefs, Ruburt found himself in a position where he came face to face with two conflicting core beliefs. His “writing self” followed one belief, in which writing certain material was permissible and good. He had schooled himself to refute any opposing impulses, and built his life along those lines from a young age.

(Pause.) The original belief meant that he considered his reality in mental terms, generally identifying a writer with ideas, and using his body as a vehicle rather than thinking of it as the living organism through which creaturehood experience must come. So this evening the senses were allowed their freedom, but the experience was magnified by his psychic sensitivity.