“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

He is somewhat better than he was. He does not block me as much as he did, and our material has been coming through very well. However he could, it seems to me, show somewhat more confidence in my ability. He certainly shows enough confidence in his own, though not in his psychic ability. Ah, here he hedges. [...]

Consciously our individual may not know what he has done. Consciously he may not even know the problems which beset him, but which he has worked out on a subconscious level. But he will have chosen his solution, and in the physical world an event will shortly occur which will be close to a duplicate to one of those dreams which he has created.

When he dreamed the dream, and chose this possibility as the solution to his problems, he had already subconsciously chosen which event he would construct within the physical field.

[...] He could, for he was then a male, he could by educating his fingers, distinguish the most slightest variation of roughness and texture.

[...] He thought of his father—he thought of his father—as spontaneous, free, and undisciplined, as somewhat stupid and somewhat dangerous. He thought of his mother as possessing a strong will. [...] He feared his mother far more, however, and he tried to temper his own behavior, to ally the intuitions and the intellect or will.

Ruburt is doing well with the point of power exercise, and I suggest he take the same amount of time to open himself up to intuitive material from the library, or otherwise. It is natural-enough that when he is beginning to use his body more that at times he becomes more aware of it, and of the time involved, and so forth. He must also remember Sumari time, for the creative imagination works no matter what you are doing.

A bodybuilder begins with certain weights that he can handle. He does not berate himself because he cannot yet achieve greater weights. [...]

He wanted to use his intuitive abilities fully, but felt that great caution must be used. He thought mainly of the health of your relationship together, and the health of his work. He became divided, seeing these as opposing tendencies in his personality, rather than as complementary ones that quite naturally met in his personality, so one was set against the other. [...]

[...] He attributes hot weather to laziness, leisure, lack of vigor, fruitless activity, and it annoys him. [...] Except for a few occasions he has not begun new projects in the summertime. He equates it with vacations and the world’s playful activity—that is my answer.

[...] He thought ahead of time that the size of the large window would more than compensate, but he carries some of his grandfather’s old ideas that the wind should be able to blow through a room so he has been uncomfortable there. [...]

3. Thirdly, he has begun lately to sense how this is done, and that is to remind himself of the mysterious effortlessness behind his life, so that he does not try too hard. [...]

The acknowledgment of such impulses in the procedure just given will automatically help build Ruburt’s trust in himself, and it is a good idea for him to note such impulses, for later on certain occasions he will be able to see how such and such an impulse, followed on its own, led him to such and such a beneficial event—an event that at the time was completely invisible or unforeseen.

He can indeed, if he believes that he can. [...]

[...] In this instance, he is turning the dial on full force, so to speak, and for a while he does not know how to adjust or manipulate the controls.

[...] He can still probe his environment in his own manner. Later more specific questions may be asked when he is more sure of himself.

When he is away on such endeavors of course our results are excellent.

(10:32.) Your young man, your visitor, does indeed suffer torments because he is so thoroughly convinced he is in the wrong place at the wrong time, and all of his unfortunate experiences follow that conviction, which so far he has refused to give up. [...] You avoided the kind of direct confrontation that would have resulted had you said, for example “I do not believe your spirit,” or “I do not believe he could do thus and so.” Your whole attitude showed the young man, however, that he was the one who must examine his own beliefs, and without immediately panicking him you showed by inference your own belief that his delusion was doing him considerable harm.

[...] But the condition began when he began to believe that he should be different than he is.

[...] Otherwise he would be walking properly. Ruburt would be walking properly if he did not believe there was something wrong with him.

[...] The same applies to Ruburt’s condition, of course, for he constantly concentrates on what is still wrong. But the material that I have just given should hopefully show him that he has been putting the cart before the horse.

In his massive imagination, he understood the cosmic multiplication of consciousness that could not occur within that framework. [...] He saw then an infinity of probable, conscious individuals, and foresaw all possible developments, but they were locked within him unless he found the means.

[...] He creates reality, period. [...] He also recognized within each consciousness massive potential that existed. [...] He must release the creatures and the probabilities from his dream.

He then purposely gave these more and more detail, and yearned toward this diversity and grew to love that which was not as yet created from himself. He gave consciousness and imagination to individuals while they still were but within his dreams. [...]

This was indeed in your terms a primary cosmic dilemma (pause), and one with which he wrestled, until All That He Was was completely involved and enveloped within that cosmic problem.

When he thinks that he must do such and such, must prove his worth by sitting at his desk, then he lays a heavy hand upon those same impulses. He is afraid of doing anything else. That might show he is not “working.” His creative and psychic abilities emerge precisely when he is relaxed. [...]

[...] He writes because he loves to write. He has an almost steady impulse to write. He has an almost steady impulse toward psychic activity, toward creativity. [...]

[...] Here, however, he has abandoned it, for he succumbs easily to negative suggestions. Because he is sensitive to various elements, he also soaks up atmosphere and suggestions like a sponge, and he has not learned to protect himself.

[...] He will always work quickly and intuitively, this is beneficial and characteristic of him. Thought and planning can be utilized however, when he is not working well. [...]

In poor periods he is almost completely vulnerable to negative suggestion, so that it operates through his own psychic and physical system. He should then often give himself the following suggestion: “I will only react to constructive suggestions.” [...]

[...] If he is highly susceptible to suggestion, he will carry out the suggestions that you have given.

[...] He did correctly hear me today. He cannot expect no problems with his classes; I hardly promised that. He can expect an overall successful class arrangement, however, over a sustained period, successful in all main aspects. He will have to work for success, but this is the kind of success he is personally equipped to work for and achieve.

[...] I know that he will not misuse the privilege. He can allow himself more freedom in his classes, and he will, for he has learned much. [...]

[...] He is well on the road to complete recovery. [...] For with each day, he has greater vitality, you see, that he did not have earlier, that works for him and for complete recovery with ever-growing strength.

Now I told you a new plateau would be reached, and he has reached it; and, incidentally, with your help. [...]

Then he realized that his body was sleeping. He wanted to “awaken” and record the experience, so he had the radio blare until [it] waked him. [...] Ruburt saw a real doctor and a real monkey because he wanted to bring home the point that living animals were then involved who were then diseased, and that real men conducted the experiments.

[...] He does not know how to use it as yet, so it appears not as a steady but as a rambunctious and sometimes distracting quality. He has not learned how to ride it, for example. [...] Ruburt was then using Larry’s, knowing that to some degree it would pierce both levels, and he hoped to compare what Larry said in each reality.

[...] Ruburt was out-of-body, as he knows, and in that state he was perceiving the greater dimensions of the class event, and trying to correlate this with ordinary class perception. [...]

As Ruburt looked out the window he was using all of his abilities, but he could not physically keep both events going at one time, or rather his awareness could not contain all of the perceptive information.

[...] Released now in that direction, and convinced he is “right,” you will be astounded at the financial benefits, and material ones. You will also be astounded at the amount of work that will be produced, and is now latently in production, now that he sees that he can be artistically creative in his terms, mix and match the psychic and the creative (dash)—designations. [...]

[...] I have said this before: as he helps you by releasing, as he has, these energies in the directions mentioned, then help him by taking the initiative at times, as he has in those directions.

He is now at a point where he can use this kind of help, where admittedly in the past he was not (period).

He is growing to new understanding, and he will, as my book progresses, make sure he does not concentrate upon what still needs to be done, but upon his successes and his recent physical improvements.

He is having this evening’s session at least partially out of his sense of responsibility—because he thinks he should, and because he thinks you think he should. He must, or should, feel free to have the sessions—to have the sessions. [...]

[...] The early vivid feeling for reincarnation, when he knew Roberts was not his proper name (as a youngster); the episode when he watched grade school children as no more than a toddler himself, and knew he had gone to school before; the flying out-of-body dreams; and the sense of identification with nature, and particularly with the night—those feelings waited for their vindication, for they did not fit into the world as he was told then. [...]

[...] Ruburt would meet them fairly directly, since after all he was not some hypothetical person reading our books, but the person responsible for delivering them. In a fashion the material returns him, however, to a natural yet mystical inner knowledge of his childhood before (underlined) he cloaked it in the church’s robes, and it would be good for him to remember that and perhaps try to recapture some of those very early feelings that he has consciously forgotten. [...]

Now: we have been having a rather concentrated group of sessions, and it is quite natural that Ruburt should want to take some time out as he has, so that he can assimilate the material. [...]

[...] His boss was busy and asked me to stop back later, after he’d had a chance to look at the car. [...] Watching the assistant, as he struggled to tighten the cap, I had the distinct feeling he didn’t know too well what he was doing, and that the amount of force he was using could strip the threads and really delay the trip if a new part had to be found, then replaced. [...]

What he is now is not what the religious think he is. Yet once he was only what they think he is now. For in fact he did evolve, and was not complete, but represented–

[...] He is not human. He is not “he,” if you are thinking in terms of sex. Nor is he “she.” [...] He is individual in the term that many energies are focused into one; and indeed there is one infinite personality, but it is a gestalt.

He is not human in your terms, though he passed through human stages; and here the Buddhist’s myth comes closest to approximating reality. He is not one individual, in your terms, but is a psychic gestalt, an energy gestalt.

If he feels that he has not done enough that day before his nap, he then compares himself to those who come home from work around five, after “putting in a good day.” If he has worked enough in his terms the comparison is not so bothersome. Beside this, there is sometimes a feeling of isolation, since you nap separately, and at times he has felt that to be a rejection—not in deep terms, but important enough so that that feeling is combined with the first one mentioned.

[...] He knew he needed rain and sun and food as the land did. He felt so at one with the land, he and his body, that “a conscious knowledge of it,” it in your terms not only would have inhibited his identification with nature, but his agility within it.

Such a knowledge as you suggest in actuality would not have added to his comprehension of his body, for he comprehended it very well. It would not have added to his health for example either, for he listened to his body so acutely that natural healings followed as he sought from nature what his body needed. [...]

Also, he uses his energy differently than you, and needs to eat oftener. [...] Either he may be hungry and take his nap, or he may eat coffee cake for example that initially supplies energy that quickly depletes itself—just about the time his nap is finished.

[...] Jimmy usually closes after 1 AM; by NY law he cannot serve drinks after 1 AM. On this particular evening during the first week in October 1964, he had some extra work to do. Shortly after 1 AM he took a waitress to her home in his Jeep. With him he also had some fresh tomatoes, and with these he stopped at his mother’s home while on his way back to the club.

[...] His father had died a few months ago, and while he stood in the backyard, a place he knew and had loved since childhood, Jimmy thought to himself: “Now, if I could see my father’s apparition, then I could tell Ma, and she’d feel a lot better,” or words to that effect. Jimmy waited beside the dark and quiet house, staring out into the backyard, but he saw and heard nothing unusual. He is well acquainted with the literature on psychic phenomena.

(He estimates that this little episode took place at about 1:20 AM. Getting back into his Jeep, he drove back to the club, a few blocks away. He arrived there at about 1:30. Just as he entered the kitchen the telephone rang. [...]

[...] Since the furnace has been misbehaving to some degree lately, he is quite anxious to find the cover, which he believes he misplaced some months ago, in order to keep people from tampering with the delicate thermostat mechanism. [...]

Yesterday he allowed some of these feelings to arise only because he was so miserable. (While we were in Sayre; Jane was doing the washing; mother was cooking dinner, etc.) He remembered you and the pendulum, and having none there instead allowed submerged feelings up. [...] (Jane told me about some of them at the time; which I thought an advancement.) He was scandalized and outraged. Sundays were the days he could not escape his mother. [...] It was a day of encounters with her—her two-hour bath, the preparation of meals, and the wild hope that he could escape after supper for a few hours.

Now apart from that, Ruburt has his own feelings, which are somewhat exaggerated, but he also usually tries to disregard them emotionally. He says “I overreact to Rob’s mother,” and intellectually then says “that is silly,” but he never allows himself to experience the feelings themselves. He does not want to hurt you. He does not want things to be unpleasant.

[...] He felt better physically when he realized the feelings at that point, and when even through a reproachful silence he expressed them. When they returned he felt them again. [...]

Ruburt has learned to make compromises, not always gracefully, but he has learned that they are sometimes important. He is against them on principle however, and very straightforward in his approach. He saw your life adding up to a circle of compromises – compromises that would cost you your vitality, both of you, in the end.

[...] (He then implied that spirits that had left the earth were seldom responsible in the first place.) Worry itself will, however, induce (he may have said “duplicate” ) a state similar to the preliminary stages of possession. (A person) never becomes possessed unless he has requested it, (when he is not interested in, or afraid of life, and would like another to take over the job.)(Eve recalls that at this point, he added:)

[...] (He advised her to assert herself more, to be less cautious in going after goals. He said she should use her “abilities” —though he was not specific.) And you will. [...]

(Seth reiterated what he had said before about my healing powers.) When you pass people in the street, go to work immediately. (He went on to say that the same power could be applied to plants as well, and that I had apparently used same in my previous existence as a gardening monk.) A plant cannot fight back, (and it would be good to practice on something whose subconscious could not give me trouble. [...]

( We can’t remember everything, but I’ll try to give a precis of what he said, based on what we both remember. [...]

He did somewhat better on the garage steps today—because he is, as I said, in a period of transition, and now is able to pull his body higher. [...] Then he had to deal with them, which he did, but they were not necessary.

He has not had nearly as much difficulty with his trousers in the bathroom, and the old image has been largely altered. He saw himself trying to walk without the table the other morning, spontaneously, and before breakfast—a sign of future physical motion of that nature. He stood at the same time while you put his jacket on, something to him unthinkable a while ago. [...]

[...] Ruburt hit on an idea yesterday, and forgot it: he mentally pretended that he was skiing. [...] He doesn’t plan to ski. [...]

[...] Very important: he got up from the bed quite easily in comparison with earlier behavior last night—surprising himself. [...]

He is able to give his emotional abilities far greater freedom. In all of his existences he has been of an extravagant nature, impetuous, choosing extravagantly-opposite experiences. He did not choose to probe lightly or delicately, for example, various areas of experience, but chose instead to intensify each life.

[...] He was very quick and impatient, particularly with the mental incapacity of others, yet he played upon their weakness in that regard. [...]

He is not unhappy, particularly if no one reminds him of what they think he is missing. [...]

[...] The boy picks up from her now that he cannot be expected to do well.

He knows where he stands. [...] He has made his decision (to get well). [...] He was correct about the enzymes. [...]

He will want to eat more, incidentally, for the body will be utilizing nutriments for repair. In a few days he has rather effectively broken the habit of worrying, which alone kept his weight down.

Now: particularly, tell him not to become impatient, to proceed as he is, trusting his inclinations: and most of all trusting the validity on and the grace of his being.

As mentioned, the (45th) birthday was important for what it meant to him, and there is a connection with you at that age—except that he has more knowledge now than you had then. [...]