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He will have finally learned intellectually and consciously, that he need not fear the spontaneous self, which has always been his strength, for it sustains him. He was made to deeply fear it, and it was a strong, dominant part of his personality. The psychic work made him fear that he had allowed it to go too far.

True questioning and true use of the critical faculties will always lead Ruburt, to intuitional truths, so there is no reason to fear them. [...]

[...] It was fear that slowed him down. [...]

It is indeed a basic anxiety and fear. [...] In the 1500’s he was eloquent, and it is precisely because this eloquence, so persuasive, so smooth-tongued, caused his superiors at that time to believe the accusations against the innocent man, that he now fears to use an eloquence, because he once let it run away with him.

[...] It is therefore the fear of expression that must be erased. [...] For both the fear and the anxiety is based simply upon a resulting distrust of his ability to handle eloquence or verbal expression.

[...] He did not speak out because of fear, and now when he wishes most to speak out he cannot.

—he has been kind to him, and he has given up much for this man whom he once, out of fear, betrayed.

(The sessions also stressed her fears of being attacked by the world if she used her abilities. [...]

[...] I tried to go easy with what I said to her today, but ended up fearing I had overdone it in my eagerness to get things started. [...]

[...] He is still working toward recovery, though the fear and panic did slow down that recovery considerably — and by recovery I mean simply the return to conditions just before this recent hang-up.

[...] But if he seems afraid it is because he fears, in an exaggerated manner, that if given freedom he would want you, and you would consider this disruptive, of work and schedule.

Behind this you see is the fear that simultaneous release of feelings can be disruptive. [...]

It is often not enough — in fact, seldom enough — that deep emotional fears simply be realized once or twice. [...] Otherwise the old habits allow such fears to be buried again.

So Ruburt’s dream made possible a conscious emotional realization of fear — but more, it provided for that fear’s release, or gave the solution to a deep emotional equation. [...]

[...] It was the fear of death — not chosen, of course — the fear that if he did not deliver, work hard, and pay his mother back for a life magically given, grudgingly given, then in a magical equation she, the mother, could take it back. [...]

The fact that the fearful ego was beginning to tighten explains your reaction to the exercises. [...] Even the prickles in your neck are like tiny picks chipping away at icy fears. [...]

[...] However, when the ego becomes involved with fears, it ceases to be an effective tool and becomes instead a hammer hitting you incessantly over the head. [...]

[...] For a certain amount of time, according to your condition, they automatically create the patterns of fear that belong to the ego.

These fears do not belong to what you think of as the subconscious. [...]

But with such a psychic expansion you would know that you had nothing to fear. Until you know that you have nothing to fear, then the fear is a reality and must be treated as such. [...]

She would not admit the fear, but would change the fear to pride, saying to herself that the world was evil, and she would therefore have little to do with it. [...]

His own fear is somewhat a danger. [...] So he has nothing to fear.

Another small note here, but a rather important one: Ruburt has nothing to fear from his mother, now, or after her death.

Some of this has to do with fear and expectation, and the fact that your mother had false teeth. [...]

[...] He need not fear any of the old trouble with the teeth, sinus or jaw—but gradually tensions are being released in the jaw, neck and shoulder areas. [...]

[...] This knowledge alone will release him from any fears that would make a minimal unpleasantness more noticeable.

(When I seemed exasperated when Jane asked me to do something for her, and dropped my notebook on the bed, she at once felt a strong fear that she’d exasperate me beyond bearing — that she couldn’t afford to get me mad at her. [...] Jane feared that if she got Marie mad, Marie would get sick and die. [...]

[...] He has progressed far enough, however, tell him, so that he does not have to fear any regression. [...]

(4:30.) For all of man’s fear of disease, however, the species has never been destroyed by it, and life has continued to function with an overall stability, despite what certainly seems to be the constant harassment and threat of illness and disease. [...]

[...] In Ruburt’s case it actually reassures the past self of any doubts or fears—doubts and fears that are also reflected, but that it has already chosen a framework or a given frame of existence that emphasizes certain kinds of experience over others. [...]

[...] The two selves momentarily become merged in a psychological synthesis, and the past self, no longer at that point momentarily immobilized by fear, instead follows through and performs adequately.

[...] Most people are caught between the hope that life offers more than conventional knowledge gives it, and the fear that it might not. [...]

There is no doubt, however, that at times Ruburt becomes quite frightened, and the fear of course represents the fear that still lingers concerning the nature of spontaneous action. [...]

Unfortunately, in your society you need every good suggestion you can get, to offset fears and negative conditioning. [...]

Now all of this serves to impede constructive and creative spontaneity, and when this does find its way though, it is in such an explosive manner that he fears it because it seems undisciplined. If he lets go creatively he fears his aggressions will also be expressed spontaneously. [...]

[...] The monks coming to the house subconsciously rearoused old fears and resentments. [...]

[...] On the negative side he can go overboard, fearing to cause another the slightest hurt, and hurting himself instead.

[...] (Very rapidly.) When his ankle bothers him it is because he fears he might fly off in the wrong direction. [...]

[...] In the past each of you to some extent made “unconscious” decisions based upon fears.

I am not speaking here of the guests that you had (Fuller and Kautz), but of mundane distractions, perhaps, that were once feared out of all proportion, and in the future can be shunned as you wish. [...]

[...] Now you could not for he is resting and he deserves it—but it was your fear that prevented your receiving the proof of the immortality of his personality. There was nothing to fear. [...] Fear—because fear sets up barriers. [...]

To him he is resting but in his dreams, for he dreams as you do, he attempts to reach you, and only your fear prevents you from realizing his presence more fully. Any person who is in another dimension is saddened when they realize that you think that because they are dead they are frightening, and they do not understand—for always before you have treated them in an entirely different manner and now you find them something to fear. [...]

[...] A gentleman without a body must be harmless, so why do I meet such fear as I always do in this class. [...]

(Gert told about coming up the cellar stairs on the day her father died and how she seemed to feel very fearful and would not look up from the floor. [...]

If he were free of fear, it seemed to him, he would do so. [...] This is not necessarily a fear, say, of performing inadequately, nor a fear of exposure in ordinary terms. [...]

[...] Ruburt began to concentrate upon them, however, and also feared that the classes might turn into more public endeavors as they became better known—one of the reasons for dropping them.

His fear of the spontaneous self originally developed simply because that self seemed so different from other people that he tried to keep it within bounds. [...]

The symptoms, beside other issues, have been a crying out to you for a love he feels he does not deserve but needs, a love he feared you could forget. He feared always that you would go your way in your work and life, and emotionally leave him alone. [...]

[...] Instead he feared that they drove you farther apart, in that he feared you would use them to spend time away from him rather than with him, and in that he did not feel able to express his own ambiguous feelings—the ideas of performance entering in here.

[...] The child feared punishment there by giving voice to any complaint. [...]

[...] The unvoiced fear always was that you would abandon him because he had no rights.

He feared his own spontaneity then was the result of unreasoning propulsion, and in his early years certainly some of it had been. He could not differentiate, and feared his spontaneous self the more, and he saw you fear your parents’ behavior.

[...] Old fears would make him gyrate, panic-stricken, from one method of operation to the other.

[...] In his gallery work experience he did his best to disguise his spontaneous nature, out of his own fear and also as a result of your attitude at that time.

[...] Its basis is fear. When you realize you have freedom, there is nothing to fear in this way. [...]

[...] An overemphasis implies a fear, and will impede results. [...]

“I am free to stand or kneel, to run expectantly forward, for there is nothing ahead of me that I need fear, and the way ahead of me is clear and open. [...]

[...] Behind it a fear of being taken advantage of when you accepted anything from another. [...]

I suggest a brief break, and after it we will touch upon some of the reasons for this fear which man felt, and feels, for the whole portion of his being. Because actually it is the apparent difference within himself that he fears, and he has projected this fear upon the part of himself he considered less capable of fighting back. [...]

[...] The clock time idea was invented by the conscious ego of man for many various reasons, with fear in the foreground.

[...] You can almost trace back this fear through the legends and fantasies of the species.

[...] The inside senses led him to a reality he could not manipulate as easily as he could a camouflage world, and he feared what he thought of as a loss of mastery.

He was afraid to make a decision for fear that it would be the wrong one, and sometimes literally afraid to move for fear of making the wrong move, and earning your displeasure of disapproval.

He felt unable to freely (underlined) express his fears to you, feeling they would only upset you. You did not express your fears often to him, so he began to hide his warm, vulnerable self from the person he loved most.

[...] You knew he would insist upon drawing you out in precisely those ways that you desired and feared, so both of you were quite aware of what was going on.

[...] For a while, now, the symptoms also represented a holding back because he feared you were jealous of his success, to save you embarrassment, as mentioned in the past.