“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Then, re-reading some material I was struck by the massive intellect behind it, the real beauty of the material, and sad that I did not really let myself realize it before; indeed that I had allowed myself to be affected by the lesser writings of others; even to the extent that in some late sessions it affected the material. Told my class last night the whole bit, and said that from now on classes were to be focused about the material; we were going to study it from scratch; this was my life work, my direction, what I was meant to do. Realized yesterday also, going over old notes, that my original ‘cosmic consciousness’ (borrowed phrases again) experience was with The Physical Universe as Idea Construction which turned into and developed into the sessions and Seth Material; the natural, intuitive, and logical development; which to a large extent I relegated to the background and sometimes even distrusted. (Largely because I feared setting myself up as some sort of a ‘false prophet’ or something; or distrusted myself, rather than it, actually.)

[...] Obviously there is a deep damaging distrust of impulses in the contemporary world, as in your terms there has been throughout the history that you follow. [...]

[...] When such natural impulses toward action are constantly denied over a period of time, when they are distrusted, when an individual feels in battle with his or her own impulses and shuts down the doors toward probable actions, then that intensity can explode into whatever avenue of escape is still left open.

I am not speaking of anything (pause) like “repression,” as it is used by psychologists, but a far deeper issue: one in which the very self is so distrusted that natural impulses of any kind become suspect. [...]

When you find yourself with good motives, you distrust them. [...]

(To Sally.) You project your own distrust upon other people and then react to it and so you close yourself off from those feelings of trust that others would express for you. Now you have a deep distrust of self that you have managed to shove beneath for many years, and it originated before your divorce. Now the distrust was projected outward, and so you found in physical reality those effects that seemed to justify your feelings and, therefore, you hid further and further within yourself, adapting a militant manner to hide the helplessness that you felt. [...]

[...] Only you can betray your feelings by being distrustful of them. [...]

[...] If you distrust one feeling, then feeling itself becomes fearful, and you inhibit it. [...]

1. Trust improvements, rather than distrust them.

[...] Such fears show that the distrust of the body is still to some extent present, so he should refresh his memory on the connections between femininity, his physical body, and health.

(I felt depressed after today’s session, for it seemed to me that Jane still hasn’t shaken her fears, especially her distrust of her own body and its processes, after all this time. [...]

[...] And to a distrust of spiritual matters.

[...] Often he simply distrusts what he feels, but the feeling is primary. [...]

[...] And despite your joint negativism, and your joint distrust of improvements, and your joint insistence upon ignoring any improvements noted by Ruburt as ludicrously insignificant in the face of what was needed—in spite of all of that, the body has kept up its own struggle.

Sometimes it seems to me that I cannot get through to either of you in certain areas, for it is precisely your ambiguity and feelings of distrust that cut improvements short, and that aggravate any otherwise briefly experienced discomforts—that is, they become exaggerated and linger.

Both of you distrusted those events. [...]

[...] The belief that the self must be kept in reins—a trust in the spontaneous self directed toward work, but a distrust of the spontaneous self when it is not so directed.

It was never, except for the time mentioned, the writing self that Ruburt distrusted, but he feared for the worthiness of his being. [...]

Even the nuns to whom he read poetry distrusted his fervency, and took him to task. They distrusted the dramatic quality. [...]

[...] (Pause.) He distrusts the spontaneous which is so a part of his nature. [...]

[...] You have a deep distrust of moving, because of your parents’ stationary background, and because of your father’s distrust and fear of the outside world.

[...] Your mother’s emotionalism frightened you so that you distrusted strong feeling, even while you must use it, and be vividly aware of it in order to paint.

Working with subjects that initiate joy within you will also help free you, though you are to some extent frightened even of joy, distrusting it. [...]

[...] There is no personal tie up with the early distrust of fantasy.

[...] The supra-conscious self tried, but the overly conscientious self deepened a preliminary distrust for me, and would not allow me to speak out clearly.

[...] It deeply distrusted the spontaneity allowed in such jobs.

As a result of such long-held theories, people have grown distrustful of their own bodies. [...]

[...] You have a deep distrust of the marketplace. A distrust so that you do not want to entrust your best works to it. [...]

[...] This will help him uncover the reasons for his distrust of the body, so that he can begin to feel a new sense of the body’s reliability, resourcefulness, and powerful healing abilities.

[...] When he is alone and writing, the distrust of the self becomes apparent. [...]

Now Ruburt did not know what he was going to speak about this evening and half of his talk in class is automatic, as you know, but it was no coincidence that he became involved in his talk of power and energy for you had a deep distrust of your own energy to sway people as a salesman (to Davey) as you had a distrust of your ability to sway people as a minister (to Joel) and as you also have the same feeling (to Davey), for what happens is this. [...]

[...] He enjoys having sessions to some degree for his students, for he responds to their desire and need, but he distrusts himself more when you are not present, you see. [...] In such cases, you see, he must trust himself entirely to me, and since he distrusts himself and me to some varying degree, then there is some conflict. [...]

It must seem obvious that behind all such beliefs lies the distrust of nature, man, and life itself.

When he is in error he sees himself as an old hag, overly cautious with his psychic work, knocks himself over the head for not being freer about it, distrusts it, knocks himself over the head for distrusting it, fearful of emotional expression. [...]