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(Jane didn’t call last night. She said that after I left her at 7:15 or so last night, following all the events of the day, she “passed out” and slept well for 2½ hours. She wasn’t so comfortable later, though. She went to hydro this morning. Pain. Later in 330 she had to call for help because she couldn’t work the nurses’ call button, and one of the nurses hollered at her. Georgia then came to help.

(Then I read her the Seth part of yesterday’s session, but not my notes. Jane said she felt a little better today generally, and I thought she acted it. “I don’t know if I’ll have a session today or not,” she said, “but keep your paper and pen handy.” And then she immediately began the session. Her words were loaded with emotion, more evenly delivered than yesterday’s session had been, yet still the rhythm wasn’t one of ease and speed.

(Jane wasn’t crying by now, but her reddened eyes and face must have been revealing, though no one said anything. “You never hurt anyone,” I said again. “I don’t know what I’m trying to say.” I held my tongue instead of cursing Marie, as I wanted to. “I’d better shut up, I guess, before I say more.”

(3:50. A nurse’s aide brought in Jane’s vitamins. Then another one came in to say hello and talk about the rain we were getting in spurts. “If any more of those kids come in I’ll scream,” Jane said when they’d left. But they’re all great people and a joy to see and depend upon, and obviously they like us.

(This didn’t mean that I didn’t still feel bitterness toward Marie. Even if she didn’t grasp the issues involved, as Seth said, did this give her the freedom to so abuse another? A large subject, I know, and one chosen by all involved, but still …