“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Today I’m 65 years old, but certainly don’t feel it. I guess it’s supposed to mark a milestone in one’s life — especially that of the male of the species — but I have no plans to retire, quit working, or give up the creative life. I feel I’m doing better than ever.

(The crew at the hospital did have a birthday party for me, and even though I knew what they were up to, it was still a delightful surprise, what with their obvious good will and cheers, the cards, and the food — more than we could eat, at least Jane and I. Mary, the head nurse, made the chocolate cake with chocolate icing. I showed them my fancy patterned undershirt as a joke, and received the appropriate ooh’s and ah’s. Even some strangers in the hall outside 330 saw it and laughed. I also blew out all of the candles on the cake — perhaps 25 of them — in one breath, which I don’t think staff expected I could do.

Donald may be so terrified of making choices, so indecisive, that he constructs an imaginary superbeing who orders him to do thus and so. If a decision comes up on a job, for example, then the superbeing will order Donald to take one course or another. Donald has given up accepting responsibility for his actions. This imaginary personage may say that it is God, or a famous hero from the present or the past, or Jesus Christ, or Mohammed, and the personality involved will be quite certain that such is the case.

(4:41 p.m. Jane said, “I have the feeling that whenever Seth gives exercises like that, that he’s giving them just when I need them, and the reader too. Some of the stuff he advocates I do real well, and others I don’t.”