“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(I told Jane that I woke up at about 4:00 a.m., worrying about all the things I had to get done this week. I was ready to start on another session for Chapter 7 of Dreams, but realized I’d have to let that go. I had to go to the bank to get checks and money orders to pay taxes and bills, hook up the garden hose, and learn how to work the new sprinkler I’d bought to spray the flowers out back. Then Wednesday morning I’m scheduled to see our lawyer regarding taxes, Jane’s social security, and so on. Later this month I should apply for my own social security benefits. There will doubtless be other things to do.

(One thing I’ve learned above all else: I’ll never again create a situation like this, where years pass before a book is delivered to the publisher. Something has to give, somewhere. I would like to get back to painting at least a little each day. This may be necessary — even vital — to my own well-being, although I must be careful about giving myself negative suggestions over it.

People with life-threatening diseases also often feel that further growth, development, or expansion are highly difficult, if not impossible to achieve at a certain point in their lives. Often there are complicated family relationships that the person does not know how to handle. To numbers of such individuals crisis points come and are conquered. Somehow the person learns to circumnavigate the unpleasant situation, or the conditions change because of other people involved — and presto: the disease itself vanishes.