“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(I described to Jane my recent use of the pendulum to study my guilt feelings about her having her symptoms and losing her teeth. We went into considerable detail here. At the time we talked my gums were bothering me considerably in the lower front, and I’ve been having more than enough tooth trouble. I explained in some detail my feelings of guilt because Jane has her troubles. There was some emotion involved. Jane thinks I can regenerate my teeth and gums.

(Then we talked about her grandparents in connection with Jane and Marie; her grandmother’s death; the lawsuit against the town, which I don’t think I’d heard about before; welfare; Jane’s grandfather, Joseph Burdo, and her feelings for him, and so forth. She told me how a traffic light was installed at the corner of Lake Street and Nelson Avenue, as a result of the suit Marie won against the city, concerning her grandmother’s death. Jane recalled no details about the suit, the time it took, the money involved. She’d been perhaps five or six years old. I said that once again Jane had been presented with extremes of behavior in the family. There hadn’t been any middle ground, it seemed. She talked about her grandfather’s death at the age of 68, when she was 20 years old. I was surprised to hear her say that she’d never read any of her poetry to him.)

(May 9: Jane read the free-association material for the two previous days, and did quite well indeed. She read portions of it very rapidly. As we discussed it a little she reminded me that she still experienced feelings of isolation at times. I said they might be normal enough, that everyone was essentially isolated, or at least alone, since no one else could live their life for them. They couldn’t be born for them or die for them. At the same time I knew what she meant — that she needed pretty steady or even constant reinforcement in the world.

(The aftereffects from the “form” lingered as we talked about it and I made these notes. Jane hadn’t been consciously thinking about psychic matters. Earlier I’d read her the verse from the birthday card I’d bought her yesterday, and she had enjoyed that as much as she had yesterday, when I’d read it to her for the first time. Both of us had felt emotion at the reading, both times. She didn’t know if that might have triggered her experience. But our feelings engendered by the reading of the card were valuable events in themselves.

The television program, about the communication of plants, also served as an impetus, so that Ruburt was able to sense the continuous “inner world” flow of love and cooperation within which all of life is couched. Ruburt had spoken about feeling isolated at times, and the experience was meant also to show him that isolation itself is an illusion.