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(We then discussed her reaction to her early religious home environment, especially to the priests in her life. She agreed that her own behavior was compulsive, in her fastening upon religion, say, and later on me. Some of this may have been due to her lack of a normal home environment, without a father, we said, yet I felt there were strong independent elements in her personality that encouraged such behavior anyhow. Of course all extremes aren’t acceptable, as say, a life of crime. Jane lacked a countering influence to the priests. She also felt “betrayed” by Father Darren when he made advances to her when she was in her earlier teens. The book burning didn’t help, either. The religious ideas really took hold, and I think we still only partially understand why.

(May 9: Jane read the free-association material for the two previous days, and did quite well indeed. She read portions of it very rapidly. As we discussed it a little she reminded me that she still experienced feelings of isolation at times. I said they might be normal enough, that everyone was essentially isolated, or at least alone, since no one else could live their life for them. They couldn’t be born for them or die for them. At the same time I knew what she meant — that she needed pretty steady or even constant reinforcement in the world.