“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Because of the interruptions by staff, Jane didn’t stay long with the pendulum. She said she also felt that she should cover up her use of the pendulum, that “people will really think I’m nuts.” I said that the truth of the matter is that no one paid the slightest attention to the pendulum lying on her belly, nor even understood what she was doing. I added that she had to be true to herself, that her troubles came from her not being so, and that if she wanted to use the pendulum then she should do so.

(Thoughts of her birthday at once led her to Mother’s Day and her own mother, Marie. Jane talked at length about the welter of conflicting events surrounding Marie and herself. She realized that as a youngster she had loved her mother, and tried hard to do things for her, even when Marie had rejected her efforts say, in buying a nightgown of the “wrong” color.

(After her lunch and reading of the free-association material, Jane said she didn’t really know what to do with herself. I started work on fan mail, which has begun to pile up again. At 3:45, Jane said she sensed or felt a “larger you” — meaning me — about her. It was a hard thing to describe, she said, and echoed my question about it being my own entity, or a portion thereof. She felt a great love from the entity. If it could be described at all, she said, it could be “circular,” though really it had no form in that sense.