“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(My own exasperation had shown through clearly at times, for it seemed that no matter what I did myself, or what anyone else did, my wife was just not going to be comfortable — not then, anyhow. Her right leg, doubled up as it is, keeps pushing her toward her left, tipping her awkwardly.

(After she’d eaten and I was getting ready to leave, Jane said, “I really feel guilty at making your life so hard,” and added more words to that effect. I think this is the first time — at least that I remember — that she’s made this statement in such a simple, direct way. At once I thought it was excellent material for free association, and that we should pursue it. I replied that we’d better forget that and try to focus on the future — yet such guilt feelings could be playing a significant role in her daily life, and we should find out if this is so.

(My own pendulum sessions lately have told me that I was feeling my own guilt because I thought I should have helped her more in the past. Just this morning my pendulum^* for the first time said that I no longer felt guilty. This is an accomplishment for me, and one I must continue to explore. I’ve taken to using the pendulum in the morning after breakfast and last thing at night before going to bed. It appears to be working well. I haven’t gone into this material with Jane yet. Now may be the time.

(The windows were wide open in 330 when she had the session, and at times the traffic noise was quite bothersome. The room had turned a little chilly, and Jane had asked me to turn off the fan.)