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(Jane finally became quite angry and vexed, and burst out talking about the lack of privacy in 330 today. This was all part of our free-association material today, May 2. She vehemently expressed her feelings, with tears, that if she wanted privacy, being in the hospital wasn’t the way to get it. She’d always wanted privacy, she added. “It’s pretty dumb, because I sure as hell don’t get any privacy this way,” she exclaimed — and I thought she was clearing a road, as Seth had suggested last session.

(Jane reiterated that she hadn’t trusted her female body, and that she thinks she’s now paying for not having kids — after all, she’d been told that’s what women were supposed to do. She also thought the church’s teachings about motherhood were ambiguous. A sonnet by Shakespeare that she’d read in high school had also given her the idea that her role in life was to bear children, and forget everything else. She hadn’t liked the sonnet and hoped it would shrivel away. She thought the church meant that a woman should be either a nun or a mother.

This does not mean those emotions should be concentrated upon, but acknowledged and expressed. This allows new feelings to take their place — and again, accelerates motion at all levels.

(4:35 p.m. “I’m telling you, I didn’t know whether I could have it or not,” Jane said. Her voice had become somewhat ragged and muted. I read the session to her. She’d really gotten upset shortly before the session. I reassured her, saying to let the session penetrate. Then, I said, “You can write your own book about all of this, like God of Jane.”