“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(We talked about her home environment, and how in 1965 the young psychologist at Dr. Instream’s hypnosis symposium had rearoused her fears, and my own upsets. Jane recalled being called a fraud by a fellow student in college, and by my mother. We talked about religion. All of this engendered some emotional reactions, but no tears. I kept trying to go back to what had happened before Jane got her symptoms, before she became well-known, and so forth. I told her I remembered Seth saying once that her symptoms “were amazingly stubborn.” Many things spoke of a great fear of spontaneity, reinforced again and again after the sessions had started, and the symptoms.

(At 4:03 she said she was getting upset by our talk. I asked her to have a session on Seth’s remark about her symptoms being “amazingly stubborn.” She decided to have a cigarette and see if she could go into trance. I’d always thought the sessions themselves were a form of self-hypnosis. We’d talked about self-hypnosis as a way of breaking through today.

(When Jane spoke for Seth her voice was rather quiet, since it was still sort of raspy from yesterday’s laryngitis, or whatever she’d had. She thought the loss of voice volume was due to free-association material. A strong wind — very strong at times — had sprung up this afternoon, and at times I had trouble hearing Jane above its noise. Her eyes were often closed, and she took many long pauses. The day was alternately bright and sunny, and very gloomy and cloudy.)

(“Good afternoon, Seth.”)

(I understand Seth’s declaration that in the deepest of terms there is nothing wrong. It’s a perception I’ve used often in the past year as I’ve tried to understand what’s going on.)

(“Well, you can see how they fit together,” I said. As we talked she began to feel Seth around again. She was reluctant to do more because it was getting late. I told her to forget that.)