“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Jane was blue and uncomfortable this morning: “What a way to live,” she said. She’d thought of death, but didn’t want to do that to me. She’s looking for a sign of something better — some improvement that will lift her spirits. She felt better after I read her the session for March 19, and a great Sumari poem I used to close out the essays for Dreams with.

(I kept trying to get at events — before and at the time the sessions began — and Jane’s symptoms. “I can’t even go home for an hour, without it costing two hundred dollars,” Jane said, and started to cry. “But I’m not ready to reconcile myself to the spot I’m in.” But she said she was often careful about what she said to me, so that she wasn’t always dumping on me when I came to the hospital. But if not me, I said, who could she talk to? Besides, I knew her moods and feelings much better, evidently, than she realized. She surprised me when she said, “I realized that I used to really dislike women.” There was more.)

(I thought the session very interesting. Seth’s comments about fleas made me wonder about using the flea bombs in the house that Frank Longwell had gotten for me a few days ago. These would kill every flea in the house, supposedly. And the vet had given me flea powder to use on the cats themselves. Would this actually deprive them of a valuable symbiotic relationship? I began wondering how to compromise about the flea situation this summer, now that the rugs in the house are all clean.

(I told Jane that Seth’s material on childhood inoculations leading to later diseases might be vulnerable to statistics. Enough records certainly exist, that such connections might be found — if they were looked for diligently enough on a long-term basis. Such a discovery could lead to revisions in medical treatment, though I’m not sure what or how. I told Jane that the material made me speculate about Joe Bumbalo: He’s had many operations in his life, and has been shot full of drugs often. Could such repeated dosages have anything to do with his having cancer now? And even now Joe is taking powerful chemotherapy treatments. He’s losing his hair, I believe.