“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Jane’s been pretty blue lately, wondering whether she’ll ever get home again. I said I didn’t know how she would — or could — at this time. It’s been very nearly a year — April 20. We had a discussion that wasn’t very cheerful or helpful, and covered a lot of ground that we’d traversed before. I repeated my old comments that I’d have been more than willing to chuck the whole psychic bit years ago, if she wanted to, for I’d seen signs of trouble way back when she was producing Seth Speaks. If the psychic work was at the base of her troubles — which I didn’t really believe, and still don’t.

(Long pause.) I will try to clear up several important issues. Of course, on one level Ruburt wants to be home, and you want him home also. On another level, he is afraid of going home, thinking it almost impossible under current conditions. This applies to you also.

He is afraid of going home because of current conditions — but that fear also prolongs current conditions. To some extent or another, you have both been afraid of making any plans at all concerning Ruburt’s return home, because they seem impractical at the present time. Both of you do indeed think in terms of impediments that do indeed seem all too real: the responsibility of maintaining good health, the financial question — and on Ruburt’s part, at least, the fear that he would not recover fully enough, but become ill again and require hospital attention once more.

(The session reinforced much of what I wrote in my notes before it was held — that fear rules, and whether by choice or not, has for many years. But then, ultimately it had to be chosen. I found myself thinking as the session progressed that what’s needed is not the allaying of any current fears about going home, but the more basic ones that are “responsible” for the whole situation to begin with. Then the current fears would melt away, I think. I even think that when Seth told Jane a few weeks ago that her broken right leg could straighten itself out, this generated more fears right there — that it couldn’t do so, and so forth. I also think that when an individual wants protection or shielding from the world badly enough, he or she will go to any length to get it.)