“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(We watched In Search Of from 2:30 to 3:00, and the program reminded me of a number of questions I’d thought of at various times. The program dealt with the atom-bombing of Hiroshima, Japan, and the after-effects, such as cancer. My questions had to do with the consciousness that must reside within, or make up, radiation, and why that type of consciousness was so virulent that we humans couldn’t tolerate it. Yet we’d created it, in ordinary terms. The same with a disease like cancer, I told Jane. Why did we create it when we couldn’t tolerate many forms of it?

(Jane told me she was a little surprised that Maude Cardwell hadn’t answered my letter of a couple of weeks ago by now — but I said I thought things were proceeding as all of us wanted them to, really. After all, I hadn’t given Maude our phone number — though I plan to — and we’ve maintained a distance from her and others who have offered help. If we behave that way, we can hardly expect others to act differently toward us.

(During the last paragraph the fire alarm bell began sounding by the elevator door outside Jane’s room. The strange ringing was most distracting, and I thought it would never stop, yet Jane remained in trance, and continued dictation around a few pauses.)

Many people believe that birth, to the contrary, is a time of trauma, or even of rage, as the infant leaves its mother’s womb. Birth is life’s most precious natural process. Even in births that are thought of (underlined) as not “normal,” there is on the infant’s part a sense of discovery and joy.

(4:35 p.m. Jane had some ginger ale and a cigarette. “Well, he’s going to cover those questions in the book,” I told Jane — “about radiation, the consciousness involved with it, and with things like cancer. It ought to be fascinating, unique stuff.” And, I thought, I had to start a page of questions and keep it with each latest session so I didn’t let them get away from us.