“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Jeff Karder, Jane’s doctor, visited her this morning. He was very pleased with her progress. “For him to say very good is something,” Jane said. “I’ve been getting good reports about you,” he told her. He also asked Jane about our insurance hassles. She explained as best she could, and about the infirmary. Jane asked him why her right leg was shorter than the left one, and Jeff explained that the break had healed but that the bones were out of alignment, hence the shortness. He said it would take a major operation to restore the leg, with no guarantees that it could be done. A “minor” operation could fix the leg well enough so she could sit up, he said, after Jane said she wanted to start sitting up.

(It’s hardly a coincidence, then, that one of the questions I had for Seth today, and had added to yesterday’s session, concerned her right leg and why she wasn’t straightening it out. The negative part of Jeff’s information is that he said she couldn’t sit up until the leg was fixed to some degree, at least. I’d expected that sort of diagnosis for some time. “Shit,” Jane said, “if my body can recover like it has, then it can fix the leg too.” I believe it. Jane took the visit well indeed this morning, and I congratulate her for doing so. I wanted to ask Seth about the whole thing anyhow, since he’s said several times that she’ll be able to walk normally and with some confidence.

(3:40. At my suggestion Jane began to try writing with one of my pens. She managed to do something, resting the pad against her right knee — which is sore to the touch. She even held the pen in her right hand. I’m to bring in the clipboard tomorrow. I’m sure she can make progress here. It might free her enough so she could write poetry at night, say, when she’s alone.

(I explained to Jane my mental saying, “Sorry, Mom, but I don’t have time any more for your shaky beliefs or ideas,” as it had spontaneously grown out of Seth’s comments about why my right hand is shaky, in a recent session. The suggestion is working fairly well. I think it’s quite humorous and original, and so does Jane. It may have a cumulative effect, and I’d like Seth to comment.

Other personal beliefs held by both of you to some extent or another, with the usual cultural connotations, stressed a false humility over the rightful natural pride of ability. Such beliefs are often given to children, appearing in such forms as, “don’t be a showoff,” “don’t be an exhibitionist,” followed by, again, the dire warning that your fellow creatures suspect any neighbor who is different or who shows any superior abilities.