“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(I finished early so I’d have some extra time to open the account for Jane’s hospital expenses — but wouldn’t you know it, the phone rang at 11:50 a.m. It was someone from social services at the hospital. She wanted to know what the latest news was, and I told her we were doing the best we could. I didn’t understand all she said, but something about the Infirmary, beds, and what she’s been telling people. She said she was “getting frightened” at what she had to tell people. I told her Jane and I have been frightened for a long time, and she understood. I explained how I’d had to back off from worrying in order to save my sanity and get some work done. She did have a bit of news — that insurance has been asking for more records of Jane’s care.

(Jane went to hydro this morning. Her eyes don’t look as red, but she said they’re bothering her a great deal. She’s trying to ignore it. She couldn’t read the session after a good lunch, so I read it to her at 3:18. I’d forgotten to stick new mail in my envelope to work on this afternoon, though I did find a couple of other letters I’d forgotten. “If I didn’t live so far from the hospital, [three miles] I’d go back and get some mail,” I said in frustration. “I thought you were thinking about that,” Jane said. Her feet again look much better, and she’s not coughing or blowing nearly as much.

(The window was closed but there was no heat again in 330, even though it had been “fixed” by changing the thermostat. Seth’s opening remarks were undoubtedly in response to my own remarks at the close of yesterday’s session, when I’d written that he often didn’t follow through, as promised, on material.)

Now I may or may not return, according to those rhythms of which I speak — but know that I am present and approachable.

(“But what do you do when you’re faced with that kind of treatment in a place where you can’t walk out if you disagree with it?” I asked. “That’s when you’re stuck … We’re a long ways from having any medical profession think about the body like Seth does, or even like we do.”