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(3:30. I read yesterday’s session to Jane, after she couldn’t do it. My throat was hoarse. I’d started coughing after eating half of one of the candies I’d bought Jane for Valentine’s Day. I had trouble reading.

(3:55. Jane’s temperature was 98.9. I read her the sessions for February 1, 6, and 7. She said her eyes do bother her. They’re very red. I suggested she have a session soon if she was going to, regardless of whether her blood pressure still had to be taken. Once again the window was open and the curtains closed because of the very bright sun. This is Day 15 of her new campaign, and I’d already reminded her of the question we wanted Seth to answer: Why had this fever and infection business erupted after Day 1?

(I told Jane that now that the fever business was on the way out, I expected to see her body continue its improvements, as obviously it was trying to do. Her new motions were a good sign of the body’s incredible strivings to express itself.

(I read this session to Jane after supper. She then admitted that she’d become frightened today because she’d been coughing up mucous occasionally. And she became even more frightened after the session. I was frightened by her reactions — appalled that after all we were trying to do, she still reacted to something beneficial — the coughing — as something to be scared of. The implications took my breath away, and I became depressed with thoughts that I didn’t see how she was ever going to make it, ever going to break that cycle of fearful response to the world and her place in it, her fear of being attacked, of life itself. I wondered what we’d been trying to do all of this time.