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(One of the nurse’s aides stopped by for a visit. She had been injured and suffered a relapse when she fell and twisted or pulled on some of the staples in her leg. Now a prolonged recovery period is predicted. Jane and I soon noticed the negative suggestions her doctor had given her, as she talked with us. She also told us that another nurse will be out for at least a week with a strained back, which she evidently got from trying to lift a patient. It made us wonder about working in hospitals — it seemed everyone was sick at one time or another.

(3:45. I read a batch of recent sessions to Jane. She told me of a dream she’d had last night, vivid, involving her walking, putting on new clothes while in the middle of a street, of leaving the hospital and going across a street into a Five and Ten, of putting pretty decorations in her hair. I said the dream was a very good one, and once more set the stage for the act of walking. She agreed. I worked on some mail.

People with so-called secondary personalities also fear their own energy. They divide it up so that it seems to belong (long pause) to different personalities, and is therefore effectively divided. In basic terms, true amnesia does not exist in such cases, though it appears to. The people involved are quite aware of their activity at all times, but they behave in a fashion that is not continual — that is, the main personality does not seem to behave in a continual manner, but is broken up, or again, seemingly divided. This psychological ploy neatly prevents the so-called main personality from using all of its energy at any one time.

(Long pause.) The individuals concerned pretend to themselves that they have no memory of the other personalities’ existences or activities. These personalities, however, store up their energy so that one personality often exhibits explosive behavior, or makes certain decisions that seem (underlined) to go against the wishes of the main entity. In this way (pause), different kinds of behavior may be exhibited, and while it would seem that many decisions are made by one portion of the self, without another portion of the self knowing anything about it, such usually is not the case. In fact, the main personality is able to express many different kinds of probable action, but the entire personality is prevented from acting with its full energy or power. Instead the energy is diverted into other channels.