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(I typed yesterday’s session this morning, and didn’t get to work on Dreams, “Evolution,” and Value Fulfillment until after 10:30. I also made arrangements to get our taxes for 1983 done. It worked out well, but I lost time — and when I got to room 330 this afternoon, my legs were itching again. I told Jane.
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People with so-called secondary personalities also fear their own energy. They divide it up so that it seems to belong (long pause) to different personalities, and is therefore effectively divided. In basic terms, true amnesia does not exist in such cases, though it appears to. The people involved are quite aware of their activity at all times, but they behave in a fashion that is not continual — that is, the main personality does not seem to behave in a continual manner, but is broken up, or again, seemingly divided. This psychological ploy neatly prevents the so-called main personality from using all of its energy at any one time.
(Long pause.) The individuals concerned pretend to themselves that they have no memory of the other personalities’ existences or activities. These personalities, however, store up their energy so that one personality often exhibits explosive behavior, or makes certain decisions that seem (underlined) to go against the wishes of the main entity. In this way (pause), different kinds of behavior may be exhibited, and while it would seem that many decisions are made by one portion of the self, without another portion of the self knowing anything about it, such usually is not the case. In fact, the main personality is able to express many different kinds of probable action, but the entire personality is prevented from acting with its full energy or power. Instead the energy is diverted into other channels.
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I may or may not return, again according to those rhythms of which I speak, but know that I am present and approachable.
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(4:40 p.m. I told Jane that I’d thought she would speak longer, but she said she often feels that if she did I’d never get the sessions typed. “I notice that around seven o’clock you start getting nervous,” she said. It’s true that by then I’m restless and getting tired, but I can always make exceptions. “You wouldn’t get anything done on Dreams if you had to type longer sessions,” she added. Probably true.
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