“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(She also thought of a chapter in Seth’s new book, one that was titled “Food and You” — then found herself stewing about saying something wrong in the book and leading people astray — more signs of old habits. “But then,” she said, “I told myself to trust myself and Seth, and I said to hell with it.”

(When the nurse took Jane’s temperature it was 98.8. “My God,” I joked, “that’s almost perfect.”

(4:07. The nurse came in to take Jane’s blood pressure. Jane asked for some iced ginger ale. She said that she was doing well — obviously — then added that when she spoke a sentence for Seth she also sensed the other sentences to come, or those around the spoken one. “Like even if I give one that’s at the bottom, like a brick at the bottom of a building, I know the ones up at the top of the building.”

(I read this note to her and she agreed that it was an accurate version of what she’d just said. “It’s almost like instantly sensing a new tall structure, only it’s made of words.”

(After getting the ginger ale, I read the session to her that she’d given so far, then made sure the door to 330 was closed as much as possible. Resume at 4:17.)

I do not wish to simplify matters, but such decisions can be uncovered very easily in children. A child might fall and badly scrape a knee — so badly that limping is the result, at least temporarily. Such a child will often be quite conscious of the reason for the affair: he or she may openly admit the fact that the injured part was purposefully chosen so that a dreaded test at school could be missed, and the child might well think that the injury was little enough to pay for the desired effect that it produced.

All of this, of course, applies to Ruburt’s situation — for once, indeed, he willed himself into immobility, willing to sacrifice certain kinds of motion in order to safely use other kinds of psychological motion, because he was afraid of his spontaneous nature, or his spontaneous self.

He was afraid that it acted according to its own reasons which might not be his own — or so he thought. Now he is beginning to understand that his energy is the gift of his life — to be expressed, not repressed — and to understand, again, that spontaneity knows its own order.