“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(In yesterday’s session, Seth said that “new developments concerning the insurance situation are occurring, to your benefit.” It appears that he’s right so far, considering what our lawyer told me this morning about talking with the hospital, doctors, and Blue Cross.

I do not wish to simplify matters, but such decisions can be uncovered very easily in children. A child might fall and badly scrape a knee — so badly that limping is the result, at least temporarily. Such a child will often be quite conscious of the reason for the affair: he or she may openly admit the fact that the injured part was purposefully chosen so that a dreaded test at school could be missed, and the child might well think that the injury was little enough to pay for the desired effect that it produced.

All of this, of course, applies to Ruburt’s situation — for once, indeed, he willed himself into immobility, willing to sacrifice certain kinds of motion in order to safely use other kinds of psychological motion, because he was afraid of his spontaneous nature, or his spontaneous self.

He was afraid that it acted according to its own reasons which might not be his own — or so he thought. Now he is beginning to understand that his energy is the gift of his life — to be expressed, not repressed — and to understand, again, that spontaneity knows its own order.

He just told you that when he begins to speak for me he senses an entire tall structure of words, and unhesitatingly he lets that structure form (intently). The same is true with his ability to move and walk; the more he trusts his energy, the more his spontaneity forms its own beautiful order that results in the spontaneous physical art of walking — and he is indeed well along the way. The changes have already begun in his mind, and they will (underlined) be physically expressed.

(“I didn’t want to interrupt while you were reading,” Jane said, “but I began to get what he’s going to say about a whole lot of things … He’s going to get into epilepsy, and say that it’s a result of your fear of your own power, and short-circuits it. The same thing with secondary personalities, so you can blame your actions on something else.”

(“I also got that he’s going to say that in ordinary terms we don’t have access to all the information we’ve got at one time because consciously it would be so hard to sort through it — but that we really are conscious of it, and for working purposes we just pretend that we aren’t. He’s said that before — that the so-called unconscious portions of ourselves are in themselves quite conscious.”