“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(This dream stayed with me the whole day, so strong was its impact upon me. I kept feeling that strange affection for Jean, mixed with a regret of some kind that nothing could really transpire between us — because of age and other factors. I told Jane I also felt that Jean was somehow dissatisfied in life, perhaps confused, perhaps caught between her artistic leanings and her upbringing to lead the more conventional life — working at the hospital, and so forth. I sensed, I think, that she wasn’t too sure about her move to the city in North Carolina — Raleigh? — that she planned with her boyfriend. Yesterday Frank had told me that it wouldn’t be as easy to see Jean now that it was a 15-hour drive instead of just running down to Washington DC.

(3:00. Jane began reading yesterday’s session, but couldn’t do it. She quit after a few minutes while I worked on mail. She tried again at 3:20 and did much better. I told her I’ve tried Seth’s suggestions about enhancing my close-up vision, given in a recent session, and that they’ve worked very well. Jane finished the session at 3:35. At 3:40 she started reading the session for October 9, 1983, but didn’t do quite as well — see the hospital and session chronology in my opening notes for the session of January 6, 1984. She laid the session aside again for a cigarette, then went back to it at 3:58. Finally she just gave up on it, and eventually decided to have a short session, since it was getting late.)

(As we talked, something triggered Jane’s memory of a time in her teens when she’d hiked all the way out to the garage where her grandfather had worked in Saratoga Springs — “way across town.” She thought she could have been in the eighth grade. Jane remembered looking down into a puddle and composing a poem. She even remembered at least some of it:

(I might as well add that in Chapter 5 of Dreams I deal with a couple of my intense experiences with the “light of the universe” back in 1980. Frank had been involved in one of those, too, in the dream state, and Seth had explained how I’d picked up his concerns about age and sexuality and worth, and so forth. So last night’s dream also involved elements based upon data I’d picked up from Frank. Evidently our psychic communication works very well …)