“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(The day was amazingly warm — over 43 — as I drove to 330 after leaving my own typewriter at the service franchise. As she ate lunch I told Jane about my very vivid and colorful dream of last night. I felt it was significant.

(Then, I was in a lodge on the mountainside. Some of the walls were of floor-to-ceiling glass. There were many people about, sitting and eating at small round tables with white cloths. The setting was very posh. I was with Jean Longwell, the daughter of our friend Frank. We got up and began dancing, holding each other very close. I felt deep affection for Jean, a strange and surprising longing mixed with a strong sexual awareness of her attractiveness. I also knew she felt the same way about me. We talked. As we did my eyes were so close to her face that I could see the tiny pores in the skin below her eyes — very fine and smooth. The dream ended here, or faded into other levels.

(This dream stayed with me the whole day, so strong was its impact upon me. I kept feeling that strange affection for Jean, mixed with a regret of some kind that nothing could really transpire between us — because of age and other factors. I told Jane I also felt that Jean was somehow dissatisfied in life, perhaps confused, perhaps caught between her artistic leanings and her upbringing to lead the more conventional life — working at the hospital, and so forth. I sensed, I think, that she wasn’t too sure about her move to the city in North Carolina — Raleigh? — that she planned with her boyfriend. Yesterday Frank had told me that it wouldn’t be as easy to see Jean now that it was a 15-hour drive instead of just running down to Washington DC.

Your dream was triggered specifically by Frank’s visit (yesterday noon), and his discussion about his daughter, Jean.

The dream signified your knowledge that Ruburt was being cleared of negative connotations in relationship to his father. On the other hand, the young Del was also a symbol for your own inner self, acting as a guide and companion.

(4:38 p.m. I read the session to Jane. “I don’t know why,” she said, “but as you read that I got the feeling that my father is looking out for me …” I said that was certainly implied in the session, and that I’d wondered about it as Seth spoke. I also reminded her that in the October session I’d written in my notes about redemption. This is a subject I feel strongly about, yet we seldom if ever mention the word. I’ve also dealt with its implications in Dreams.

(Strange: Later in the afternoon I finally made an important connection about the unexpected value of dreams. I told Jane that I suddenly understood that in the dream I’d experienced paternal feelings — genuine ones — that I’d never known in conscious life, or had access to. It followed that in the dream state, then, I’d actually enlarged upon my experience in this life, and in a most meaningful and strong way. Even as I write this account at 9:30 p.m. I still feel the impact of those feelings.

(I might as well add that in Chapter 5 of Dreams I deal with a couple of my intense experiences with the “light of the universe” back in 1980. Frank had been involved in one of those, too, in the dream state, and Seth had explained how I’d picked up his concerns about age and sexuality and worth, and so forth. So last night’s dream also involved elements based upon data I’d picked up from Frank. Evidently our psychic communication works very well …)