“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Our dear friend, Frank Longwell, who has been a great help to us for many years, visited while I had lunch today; he’s made his first sale of a hearing aid. We wish him well. The day was much warmer — 25 degrees — when I left for 330. I turned Jane on her back right away. She said that after I’d left last night two nurses had taken care of her, and that while they were doing so, they unloaded numerous negative suggestions about many things. Jane didn’t say anything. Then when Steve and Tracy visited shortly afterward, they too had many negative things to say about many things — until finally Jane told Steve to quit dumping on her. Steve was also talking about the phases of the moon having influence on his behavior and actions, Jane said she didn’t believe in that. He apologized.

(I described an excellent dream I’d had last night. Once again in brilliant color — one of those you keep returning to. Jane and I had moved back to 458 W. Water Street, only now the house was much bigger than it really is, had many more apartments in it — they were all in good shape, with numerous stairways connecting them on a split-level layout. They weren’t closed off from each other as apartments usually are, so that the numerous tenants could have free interchange with each other if they chose to. But when I wanted to be by myself to paint, I had a corner studio I could retire to where I could work in privacy — a very nice room. Jane was very active and healthy, walking about normally. In the dream I was involved with painting, but not writing.

(3:16. Jane started reading yesterday’s session, and did fairly well, better than yesterday, I thought. I did mail. She began to have trouble getting through the session, but finished by 3:30, doing better towards the end.

(3:55. I began questioning Jane about her religious training in Catholic grade school. I’d started roughing out a note this morning having to do with Seth’s statement in a session for Chapter 5 of Dreams. In it he’d referred to early humans living for several centuries — the only time he’s ever made such a reference. I planned to look up the ages of some Biblical patriarchs, and wanted to know what Jane might have been taught about such people, and their ages.

(Carla interrupted our conversation to check Jane’s vitals — temperature 98.4. During our talk I noticed that it didn’t take my wife long to begin reacting emotionally to my questions, which I thought were innocent enough — but it was apparent that the subject matter of our conversation had an emotional charge for her. One of them, I thought, probably related to her symptoms if one traced it back. In fact, I was sure of it. However, after she realized what she was doing, Jane seemed to take my questions in stride, and even volunteered a lot of information I hadn’t asked for.

(4:20. Jane asked me to rub a certain spot on her left temple. Finally, when I withdrew my finger, she suddenly cried out and her head dipped quickly to the right. Some kind of muscular release had taken place, quite unexpected. She cried out several times and appeared momentarily dazed. She asked me to rub the equivalent spot on her right temple, but before we got any results a nurse came in to say, “I’m making my 4 o’clock check a little late. Do you want anything?”

(“And I got hot too, after that,” Jane said, referring to her forehead reaction, This made me think that the warmth she felt was a sign of bodily healing, such as Seth had said recently was associated with warmth.

(After our talk about religious questions, I wrote a short note quoting Jane — one that I may use in the note for Dreams — and got her okay on it.)

(4:40 p.m. I thanked Seth for appearing. Jane had some ginger ale before I turned her on her side. I didn’t note it in my dream account earlier here, but I’d described to Jane how I’d asked whoever owned 458 W. Water Street these days how much our rent would be. I did this several times, but received no answer. I expected it to be good, and was afraid it would be high. Seth hadn’t commented, and I didn’t ask him.)