“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Jane was “blue and nervous” this morning, but talked herself out of it. She ate a good lunch. I had yesterday’s session typed, and she tried several times to read it without success — even after I’d given her eyedrops, she just couldn’t do it today. I finally read the session to her, finishing at 3:33.

(Long pause.) It may be far more pleasant to be good-humored all of the time — but in Ruburt’s situation the fairly infrequent periods of blueness do indeed operate therapeutically, so that he is able to express those feelings through tears, and therefore relieve the body of expressing the same feelings through additional symptoms.

In the past, the body itself was depressed (a very important point), running at low gear, and this is certainly not the case now. Each time, of course, the period of blueness is briefer, the system cleared more quickly, and the new improvements also show themselves at a quicker rate.

(Long pause.) The changing condition of the eyes shows the kind of cycles that occur: the upper edges, so to speak, of improvements continue, so that each new improvement is, obviously, superior to the last. But in the meantime there is much variation, unevenness, and times when the vision is quite unclear. Those changes do indeed seem mysterious. Ruburt is not looking at his own eyes all of the time — so that mysteriousness is somehow taken for granted. He understands so little about the eyes’ operation to begin with, that he does not bother to figure out, or try to figure out, the order that such improvements should take, or how they should happen.

(4:27. A new nurse came in to take Jane’s temperature — 98.3. Karina had been yelling throughout the session — so much so that at times I’d almost missed what Seth had been saying.

(4:44 p.m. That was it, although Jane said she had more material available. It was time to turn her. The situation was somewhat frustrating, since I’d looked forward to some good material in changing the past from the present; I hadn’t wanted the question to be forgotten.

(Maybe more on it tomorrow, Jane said at last. Karina had definitely been a bother this afternoon, and she was still calling out, her voice hoarse and much weaker. I told Jane I thought she sounded like she was reliving a reversion to her childhood. The staff people had tried to calm her down at various times, to no avail. Jane said their actions made her feel bad, because it reminded her of when she’d had her own panic feelings, and people had tried to calm her down in her early days in the hospital. Now, Jane said “cancel” to herself after she’d told me her feelings.)