“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Yesterday’s session was mainly on the Sasquatch phenomenon, triggered I imagine by the program In Search Of, and I’ll probably take time off from Dreams one morning to get it done. That’s complicated at the moment because I’m already taking time off from Dreams each morning now, to work on 1983 tax figures. But we’ll make it.

(This morning [and last night when I got home] the furnace was making so much noise that I called our plumber to come check it out. I left the garage door open for him, as promised, so he could get in the house in the afternoon when I wasn’t there. Miracle of miracles — when the heat came on tonight the furnace was so quiet I couldn’t believe it. It’s always been noisy to some extent, but lately has been much worse.

(Last night in the mail I found Carol Steiner’s Ph.D. thesis on the Seth material, which she’d promised in November. We knew a year ago she was writing this for her doctorate in philosophy. Quite interesting, but as I told Jane, it reminded me of just what a task it is to start at the beginning and present an explanation of the Seth material. From our viewpoint I suppose it seems like more is left unsaid than said — but this may always be true in such cases. Carol wants to publish the work, and asks about a Butts-Roberts biography — something I think we’ll probably pass upon. I’ll write our publisher, Prentice-Hall.

(Jane ate a good lunch. She tried re-reading the session for January 9, but had trouble. Her eyes kept changing; at times she could see well. Seth has mentioned this acclimatization of the eye muscles. Most of the time Jane had trouble, trying to read around being given her vitals, and finally she gave up. We forgot to ask Carla what my wife’s temperature was. I made an attempt to answer the mail, but didn’t do well. The time seemed to be gone before we could get anything done.

Your situations can be called extreme — but true extremes are far less fortunate. You have, for example, the extremes of poverty suffered by people in many other parts of the world — a poverty that stunts all kinds of growth, mental and physical, and brings about an early death. Or the extremes of disease, in which children are born without all the faculties needed for life, and — therefore also die an early death. Or those extremes when entire families suffer patterns of tragedy so whole numbers are wiped out at one time.

I may or may not return, again according to those rhythms of which I speak — but know that I am present and approachable.

(4:30 p.m. Jane felt better. I told her that Seth didn’t go into our questions about his material in yesterday’s session, concerning changing the past from the present, nor did he comment on Carol Steiner’s Ph.D. thesis on the Seth material. I’d showed it to Jane, of course, but she hadn’t been able to read it.

(Then she revealed that more and more she’s worrying about why the right leg looks so much shorter than the left one. It doesn’t seem possible to her that she’ll be able to walk on it even if she does straighten it out. We talked for a little while. I’m afraid the talk didn’t make her feel any better. I’ve known for some time that a problem exists there as to why the leg is shorter-looking. “But then,” I said, “we’re not supposed to think that way. We’re supposed to have the confidence that the body knows what it’s doing, and will fix that leg in whatever manner is necessary.” Jane agreed, of course, but I could see she was quite upset.

(I said she may have to get a medical opinion, but that I felt that if they wanted to X-ray the leg tomorrow, she’d say no. I would dearly love to see the leg begin to relax, to straighten out to at least a degree. I’m terribly concerned at the stress involved in her holding the right leg so doubled up against her groin. As I said, I still don’t really know why the body has to do this. That even if the bones had been weakened by prolonged stress, with her improved appetite and attitude, that danger period should be at least somewhat alleviated by now. No more bones have broken.

(In short, Jane, the right leg is evidently to play a central role in your recovery — not only a physical one, but a vital one concerning changes in belief about the whole thing. Ironic indeed, I thought as I drove home, if the broken leg would serve as the last, final impetus toward clearing our psyches of the last of the old, damaging beliefs, so that the new synthesis can finally take place: the body can heal itself …