“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(I’m typing this session on May 23, 1985. My friend, Debbie Harris, found the original in notebook #39 when she was copying it for Yale University Library. I’d evidently laid the notes aside to type the next day because I was so busy, then forgot to type them. I seem to have a vague memory about this. I think it’s the first time I ever skipped typing a session that way.

(How strange — here I am, typing another session from my notes, when I thought that part of my life was over — that I’d never have another session to type. I wish there were more of them to do. Jane has been dead for 259 days.

(This material came through after Jane and I had watched a program yesterday and today called In Search Of — old reruns featuring Leonard Nimoy. I don’t recall the shows. In my original notes I had noted that today’s “session material was quite unexpected.”

(4:55 p.m. “I should tell you,” Jane said as I lit a smoke for her, “but as soon as that program was over, I knew he was going to mention the Abominable Snowman. But I thought it would be maybe a few lines — I didn’t expect that much.” I hadn’t expected any. The TV show had ended at 3:00 p.m. Jane also said she “saw,” or remembered, what the insect trap looked like, but she couldn’t make a drawing of it. She said she didn’t want to mislead me, but that the traps reminded her of spider webs, the way the insects became trapped in them.

(5:00 p.m. “Don’t be worried — I’m not going to go on with the session, but as he said, you always go back and change the past from the present — your focus point, you know — I know what he’s going to say next …” I said she was welcome to resume the session.

(I had to ask Jane to repeat what she said because the Russian patient in the room next door, Karina, was yelling out in the hall, as she has been all afternoon. Quite distracting. She’s still at it. The girl who brought the supper tray at the end of the session left our room door open, and Karina sounded all the louder.

(Added on Wednesday, January 11, 1984: We’d like more on changing the past from the present. Today Jane and I sort of disagreed [I think] on what Seth was saying. She seems to think the actual episode of Father Darren chasing her around the bed when she was in that hotel room with him as a teen-ager is changed, whereas I thought Seth meant that the original event remained, but that her psychological understanding of what had transpired changed a good deal. There is a difference here. Jane doesn’t create a reality in which the event is absent from her memory, or never happened, that I know of.