“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

He remembered his mother’s constant criticism of him, but barely recalls his scandalized disapproval of her swearing, for example, on his return home. He threw himself headlong into the Catholic reality, pursued it with great stubborn diligence, used it as a framework of conventionality in which he could allow his mystic nature to grow.

For all of the reasons given — and they are clearly given (in personal sessions) — he was afraid that spontaneity, mental or physical, would threaten the long-accepted framework of your joint lives. If he went spontaneously forward in mystical experience, then, given his ideas, it threatened the conventional acceptance of his art. Conventional ideas of art and writing, upon which the old framework, now, was dependent, no longer fit.

It was on the surface a very conventional structure, yet underneath, highly unwieldy. There were dogmas. The mother was expected to bear perfect children and to be subservient to the male, at least in outward fashion.

She had forced herself to contain her own reality in conventional terms — but to her way of thinking, he refused to use his energy in the accepted social and financial structure that each of them had accepted.